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| confused+abused (profile) wrote, on 4-4-2004 at 11:56pm | |
| Subject: I never knew it would hurt this bad to lose you. |
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| I have been reading my journal the last couple of days... the whole thing and I'v realized that I have grown up, and I know im not fully grown up but im getting somewhere. I have done plenty of things wrong... not just during the time i'v had this journal but my whole life... but each thing in my life that happens is like a card... you need each one to finish the game but in the end nobody really wins... and no one really finishes... Just while writing in woohu i'v been angry and sad and all the emotions in between i'v gambled with life and lost one of my very best friends... i'v learned lifes to precious to gamble and no matter how hard you try people are still going to be people and they have their own personality which isn't always going to be like yours and you can't always hold on to the people you care about you have to let them find out firsthand how hard life can be. It takes some people years to think about life this hard and some people never fully grasp the concept... maybe i don't have it figured out and i know i don't have it completely figured out and to be honest with you i hope i never do lifes a dream you live it you love and long for it... and in the end you wish you could do it all again... i hope i never feel that way, you know looking back hoping to change something... i don't regret the things i'v dont' because they'v gotten me where i am... and i don't regret the things i'v said because i'v obviously said them for a reason which is sometimes unclear but at the time seemed right... im just hoping that maybe i can move forward and inch at a time and not let the rest of my life slip me by.!!! Jc |
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wildthing | 04-05-04 9:36pm jecika i know i have told you this many other times but i am gonna keep telling you...talk to me! i am here for you ok? i mean i know i not one of the people you hang out with a lot but i kinda know how things are working your way...ya know. i mean i have been through a lot of shit in my life to and i am only 17. and not havin my mom suck big fuckin ass. I miss her a lot...and she is one of those ppl i would love to go up to and tell her all of my problems but i cant now....i have lost that trust in her. so i am totally here for you when you need me ok? i dont want you to go through hardcore shit that dont need to happen...ok? i love you lots.... |