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| shiznit05 (profile) wrote, on 4-11-2004 at 11:25am | |
| Current mood: im alright |
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| bobcat relays has come and past...it went fine, i threw disc alright and i sucked it up in shot, i seem to have hit my wall...and its a huge wall that i cant seem to get over and its really dragging down the self esteem whenever i enter the circle...we got 4th in disc though, had i thrown better we might have gotten 3rd, stacie did her job...i failed on my end of the deal... my face is sunburnt...i should have put sun screen on... i havent really lliked myself a lot lately...im reacting to things much differently than i used to..maybe its maturing..but i dont think thats it; i think lately ive just had many different influences and they're taking their effect on me...like the f-word...i never used to say it, and now i say it a lot, and i cant say im proud of it. im not being as helpful as i used to be, people will ask for help and i'll try but not really put as much into it as i used to and looking back on certain things i feel horribly, i should have been more helpful than what i was, and im so sorry i couldnt help the way they wanted me to...i also need to watch what i say..because what i say and what i mean arent necessarily the same thing...my sense of humor can be at times demeaning and im really not meaning for it to be that way, and i know that im joking but i fear that the person on the receiving end of the joke doesnt understand that fact...i always think back on things and realize that the comments i made werent nice and probably werent seen as humor...i just need to learn to not speak...i think everyone would benefit from that oh, and Happy Easter |
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| Anonymous | 04-11-04 9:05pm that was kinda confusing |