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| cradleofilth (profile) wrote, on 4-11-2004 at 3:19pm | |
| Current mood: bouncy Subject: Happy Easter^^ |
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| well its easter, and i got a whole pile of candy^^ im happy, though i was stuck at church all day ( feh..) and i wish Frans was on, i love him sooo much and i want to talk to him. *thinks* maybe i should go out and get a international phone card *nod nod* that might work ^^; than i can call him and speakie to my lover. im off school tommorow *sigh of relief* the only reason why i kinda like going to school is to talk to my friends. Im really gonna miss some of them next year, feh, chances are im gonna cry or somethin like that on the last day...im so emotional sometimes..but than again i cant wait til high school because it means that i can drive soon, and all that good stuff^^; well i told another one of my friends i was gay today.....she found it cute for some odd reason, and wants me to be her best gay friend and go shopping with her.....i dont mind that really*nod nod* i like to shop ^.^ though i want to be just a normal friend, i dont see why my sexuality really matters in becoming a best friend...but i dunno, i'm not gonna dwell on it...though she made me think about something...she was asking me about why i keep being gay such a secret, and why dont i tell more people...i really should but im kinda afraid....because of all the junk that happened about robert telling people he's bi, i dont wanna end up hurt that much emotionally like that. I just dont think i could put up with it, roberts strong when it comes to taking insults and things, i cant stand being called those things really, it makes me angry and sometimes even feel like cryin. I really should set the record straight and come out with everyone....i mean i think the whole school thinks im bi, because of awhile back, when i thought i was..but now im fully gay....and i dunno...i just freeze up when i tell people things like that, i dunno why. Im just very weak emotionally i guess.... Robert. if you read this, i want you to know that you did something i could never have the strength to do. I hope you have the best of luck finding a guy or girl. And Frans, i want you to know, theres not a day when i dont think about you. i felt soo bad that i could talk to you today, on easter, i need to somehow make this up to you.i love the card you sent, it was soo sweet ^^. i cant wait til im old enough to get outta here and be with you. i love you soooooo much. i was going to call you today, but it was too late when i finally got the phone card and everything. :sniffle: i dont like that 6 hour time difference >.< well im off to bed to think about all these things on my mind. byes all, Joe I love ya Frans ^^ |
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xoxchulaxox | hey babeSz!, 04-12-04 12:21pm hey joe shmoe itz me tha qanGzta qurL stefii ! lol yuhh riqht eniiwhoz ur journaL iz lookin` better. i kant stand that sonq pero itz all qraviie babiie ! =] loff yahz ! |
| Anonymous | 04-12-04 12:26pm Hi Joe
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cradleofilth | Re:, 04-12-04 1:15pm I need to find some trance house, theres gotta be some that i can add on the net somewhere..*thinks* im gonna go find some songs^^ |