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| Mizprettyinpink (profile) wrote, on 4-12-2004 at 10:52am | |
| Current mood: crushed Music: seventy times seven, brand new Subject: awful night = awful day |
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| IN TIME, by me you parents teach you to say no to drugs to wait for sex to hold back your angry words at people you hate but they never prepared you for the heartbreaks to come they must have thought i new it all honestly, did you think it wouldn't hurt me you only lead me to it and now i cant get through it waiting for the day that you'll say "im here it's ok" but i know it will never come wishing on a dying star it was all a bad dream, you're mine but the dying star fades along with our days missing the times i thought you'd be mine the days we knew we were soul mates i still think the same . . . i'm still here and always will be, it's to hard to let go . . . this is all i know hold on to what matters don't let it get away talking to you our conversation progresses i wish now i never said a thing my best friend's there, she doesn't know what to say she sees you hurting but she can never understand the pain just start to think about all the fun times, and i cry start to think about those nights we felt so alive i needed you to see it through, thinking every step of the way that you would we stayed up until half past three falling out of our chairs laughing, literally i could live forever that way just you and me and every stupid little thing you say i hope i drown in my sleep with every memory of you and the way things used to be maybe then your life will go back to just right and you wont lose sleep thinking about me in the night this is by far worse than i ever imagined when you just cant cry because the dark has soaked up your tears you feel yourself drifting into despair the words are way to much for me to bare "friends, its all we can ever be" when it's always meant SO much more to me i wish you'd understand just how much i wanted you you say you'll be alright you'll live when its just so hard to see it now i come home, i'm all alone, whats new it used to be i'd be alone so i would talk to you she's so much more to you than i had ever imagined i do feel bad for saying this but i wish it never happened the safe i once knew is now gone every corner i turn your there, waiting to remind me of just what i cannot have i opened my heart once to an amazing guy, it turned out not so great, now im just waiting for these tears to subside the only place i could ever talk here, i know you don't read this but i wish you'd take a peak see just what you meant to me, understand my agony. it just doesn't seem quite fair, despite of everything i've said nothing can really quite compare . . . to her i know i brought it on myself i KNOW this is all my fault but really i feel dead and my feelings balme my heart who lead me falsy to this guy who i know is just right, but i didn't really steal him in time i still hope you miss me and i still hope you care i know i've been a bitch, i'm just mad because i was never prepared for a night when the world might come crashing down and you look so hard but you don't see anybody around grabbing desperately to save myself, i only see you drifting father . . . i'm making it worse i have so much to do here in this little house but i can't stop thinking of you i need you here to hug and tell me it's ok but you live 900 miles away its ok i'll be fine . . . in time |
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AshleyG | LaurEn, 04-12-04 1:01pm hey r u ok ? i know we dont talk as much anymore but i stillcare * |
| Anonymous | Lauren!, 04-12-04 1:47pm please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cheer up!!!! be happy and don't let his dumb ass girlfriend and "distance" ruin everthing...i luv ya! |
Anonymous | Re: Lauren!, 04-12-04 1:52pm its ok if it makes him happy its ok lauren |
stepht | 04-12-04 7:23pm hey lauren !! are you ok ?? if u need to talk about anything .. ill be here!! xOx |
Anonymous | Re:, 04-12-04 7:25pm ill be ok ... |
Chicken55 | Hey Lauewn, 04-14-04 10:55pm Hey Girl !! U better be okay or I mite just have to come over an give you a huge hug lol We are guna have a high school reuoin so dont worry you can see me ! Well anyways I just wanted to say hi an say dont be sad its not fun i should know...well good nite sweet dreasm..
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andy | 04-15-04 10:18pm Your $2.00USD has been received. Thank you. |
mizprettyinpink | Re:, 04-17-04 11:15am ok ... thank you too |