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| FreakishIYK (profile) wrote, on 4-15-2004 at 4:22pm | |
| Current mood: sad Subject: .... |
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| It's been so long since I've updated, wow. Well, lets just get to it. Lately I've felt a little depressed, but can't really place why. A few days ago I was talking to one of my friends....and it turns out he likes me, a lot......the bad news? he's 12. He's one of those online kind of friends....and I don't see how, but he likes me. He wanted to know if he had a chance....oh boy. He's a cool kid, and I don't wanna hurt him. Well, anyway the conversation led to him asking me "what makes me happy?"......what makes me happy? It seems like an easy question doesn't it? I thoughts so at first....but that was one of the hardest questions I've come across so far. I couldn't answer him. So since then I've been thinking hard about it...and this is what I've come up with so far.....what makes me happy is...my dog, Rollie. That's it. I mean there's always my family, and the few friends I have...but what truly makes me happy is Rollie. Probably sounds silly, I would imagine. But he's the only one who has been there everytime I needed someone. He knows when I'm mad, or happy, or sad. When I'm mad he protects me, when I'm happy he just makes me happier, and when I'm sad...he knows it, and trys to cheer me up. I don't know what I'd do without him. Also, lately my head has been full of thoughts...about everything I guess. Mostly about my love life, or lack there of. Yea, yea...I know, not more of this crap? Well, it's literally the only thing that happens to me....so bite me. Ya know....it's my head, my thoughts...you'd figure atleast I would understand it all, ohhh no, of course not. Certain ideas or images appear in my head and I don't know what to make of it....I wish I had something just could just read my thoughts and tell me what it means. For example...I'll think of someone, that I'm not sure I wanna think about. So, I'll try to push the idea out of my mind, but it always comes back. And I feel embarrassed because it feels like people can see into your head and know what you're thinking....but then sometimes I realize that's never the case and tell myself screw it, let me enjoy it while it lasts....and just let my head wonder, thinking about that person. When I think things like this I get a little saddened....but then I just get frustrated and annoyed because the thought wont leave me alone, and I can't figure out why I'm thinking it. I dunno.... Anyway, I'm tired and can't think of what else to say, so I'm gunna go take a nap. Oh and I have to remember to send the money for this site. I don't want me journal being deleted. Bye guys. PS oh and I still don't mind comments (hint hint) |
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malicsadat | yoo-hoo tast good., 04-19-04 9:30pm hello again mandy candy. still miss you some what. aww poor kid. i know what it's like to have some one to young have a mad crush on you, but you know what the worst times are? when you like them too. a word of advice if i may? fallow your heart. some times it just might be the right person. then again, i may not be the best person to take advice from, seeing as how i have yet to find a working relationship. and i'm sorry i don't coment more. i realy mean to, but never do. adu` |
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