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mizu87 (profile) wrote,
on 4-15-2004 at 8:50pm
God I want to cry.. I am so fucking annoyed with EVERYTHING.

.. I told mrs. b to her goddamned face that I wasn't quiting dispite what my mother said. And fucking Laura said she told mrs. b that I 'thought' I was playing and mrs. b said 'well her mom told me she was quiting'.. so.. I got left.. fuck her.. damnit... fucking bitch...

... .. the taxes.. god. I hate my brother.. I hate my family.. I hate this house.. and I hate this town.. I hate the people in it.. I hate the air around it. I want to fucking beat my brother till he shuts up... I hate his voice.. everything about him.
I hate softball... I want to quit.. since I'm supposly already going to... .. TOMORROW is the fucking High School tournment.. goddamnit... I .. was.. going to go into town tomorrow ... damnit... I hate it all.. I really do.. I want to get away.. I hate all this.. damnit. I have no where to go... ...

........ I am tired of my mothers mouth.. damn.. she is all talk.. that is all she is. Now she threatens to take 'money' away from me. Well fuck, I fucking told her' I don't fucking care, I don't care about money like you do. Tring to bribe people with money, how pathedic' that's what I told her.. .. god...

I dont' want to play tomorrow.. i don't want to be a quiter... but .. I don't want to play.. well... ah... I do.. .. just.. I hate all the people out here.. I really do... ...
I just want to see Jon.. He'll get my mind off things... ...
Amanda is having major family problems. Her parents are fighting again and she ran off to a friends house in town... KiKi's and Alex's ... I feel sorry for her.. atleast she has somewhere to run though... .. unlike me... ...
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... .. .. .. ... I want to just go out and walk in the dark.. but... I know if I try to exit the house.. I'll get yelled at.. and stress them out.. if I run away.. I'll stress them out. I want to get a cell phone so that I can run off and still be in contact with them.. ..
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Ja~
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Hiei

04-15-04 10:15pm

And tomorrow you'll be bitching about something else, you love your mom, she's all you got.. With out family you have no one, friends don't count, you meet them then you never see them again but you'll always have your family. Your just a whiney little Teen so this is normal I won't stretch the matter.

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mizu87

04-15-04 10:26pm

... .. Hiei is right.. well not about what he wrote.. but he should know what I'm talking about.

I'm slefish.. .. I do love my parents.. but.. ... .. family.. .. No family isn't forever Hiei.. they are still just people.. ..

... god.. I've tired before not to be too selfish.. I spent my paycheck on food.. but no one is eating it since I bought it.. .. .. what is the point of having work when you have to have your parents drive you there? Have to go out of their way so you can get money? .. God.. why can't I pull myself together?...

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Hiei

04-15-04 10:39pm

Because your dumb, all teens are dumb. You'll figure it out eventually.

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jahreee

Re:, 04-15-04 11:33pm

Teens are "dumb" in the sense that they have yet to experience all that goes on in life. And even then, when have you fully experienced life?

So her family is disfunctional, I know plenty of families like that and you're right, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. Just that they're always around each other and you feel the need to be at each other's throats. Give it time and things will calm down. Well, maybe except for the neverending gambling issues, but that's not my place.

Anyways, flat out insulting her won't get her anywhere. Maybe rewording it would help? I know you'll figure it out eventually.

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Yusuke

Re:, 04-15-04 11:50pm

teens aren't dumb, you can't classify what you, yourself has gone through as a teen and consider everybody else dumb. I don't figure myself dumb except for adults and old people. e.e thats who hasn't figured it out yet.

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mizu87

04-16-04 12:12am

Yusuke, so good to see you again!

Teens don't have enough experience to say who is dumb and who isn't.. the gambling thing.. well I can understand why they go but you have to draw a line somewhere.. I've cooled my head and I'm in the wrong.. well atleast in some spots.. I've just never treated my parents like mother and father.. always equal.. but.. I do give them respect in public.. but at home.. well.. I'm the one always right I guess.. atleast I see it that way and I have to stop it... ...

.. thank you all for your comments.. they mean alot.


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Hiei

04-16-04 12:13am

I wasn't planning on insulting her, even though I did atleast I made my point and she understands what I was saying..

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mizu87

04-16-04 12:21am

Hiei always insults.. it's just how he talks -.-' But he's right, I do understand what he says.. I usually do... but no one seems to understand me -.-+ and then now Hiei is gonna think I'm whining AGAIN ::rolls eyes::


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jahreee

Re:, 04-16-04 9:32am

Alright, just as long as you two understand each other.

I don't put up with that bullshit where people comment on other people's experiences when the most they know of the other person is their name. To me it's like "Who the hell are you to be saying this?"

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mizu87

04-16-04 9:50pm

Nn.. well thank you Jahreee... ...

Hum...



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