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| sunsweet (profile) wrote, on 4-15-2004 at 11:39pm | |
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| So, again its been a while since the last time i wrote so here goes. Alot has happened, some of which im not sure was for the best. Recently i lost something that i didnt realize was as precious to me as i do now that i have lost it. I feel horrid almost. The worst part of all? I cant tell anyone, or vent to anyone about what i am feeling. I thought i was pretty good at "sharing" what i felt, but im really not and i figure half the advice is shit n people judge u, even the people u think wont....they will. no matter what u think, dont let ne1 tell u different. I almost feel empty now, bc i have no1 to turn to...life is shitty that way. suggestions? a counslor! yes...that way i can talk 2 a person who is payed to listen 2 our shitty lives...wuta joke. and they are probably coloring or playing tic tac toe instead of really listening. hey w/e works right? damn greedy counslors. but i am getting off topic..my bad. so i cant vent to anyone, so i must get it all out on here so i dont explode. But i have realized that ppl are dumb, they have 2 be the first to know everything, gossip etc. I wish there werent rumors...and no one was judged. Only in a perfect world right? That figures, maybe someday people wont be judged like they are now. hey thats the "wut if". i dno wut im saying. but right now all i want to do is tell everyone 2 shut up n leave me alone. you know i almost feel fake at times, i swore i would never be a fake person. i hate them. but i am not myself around alot of my friends. seriously. i cant be myself i guess bc...why? yeah thats right, i will once again and forever be judged. now the real ?....why do i care so much wut ppl think? bc if i didnt, n acted careless, life would prolly be miserable. except for those lucky ppl...which i am not. but hey i will stop feeling sry for myself bc there are starving ppl in etheopia making shoes for unincooerated america right? | |
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daydream | 04-16-04 7:24pm i'm worried about you lizzie, talk to me. |
daydream | 04-16-04 7:27pm i hope i'm not one of those people you THINK you can talk to...i AM one...if you judged everything i've told you i'm pretty sure we would have stopped being friends a long time ago. you're my best friend and i'm not ready to lose you yet, or ever. |