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H2OforDuo (profile) wrote,
on 4-18-2004 at 5:45pm
Subject: Please read this. (It's actualy not that long, it just looks big)
I just had the most interesting conversation of my entire life with Alan and Hunter...About life and death.
Hunter says there is nothing after life, it's just oblivion.
I said that we all exist in eacother's minds, that I am the Caroline that exists in Hunter's mind, and he is the Hunter that exsits in Caroline's mind.
Hunter agreed.
Alan insted that there was indeed something after death, Hunter insisted there was not, that there was simply oblivion. We continued talking about oblivion for a while.
For a while it was just ALan and Hunter arguing, which was all very interesting.
It got deeper and deeper as we went along, untill Alan started to cry, saying that it wasn't true.
This is part of why I now know I could never date Alan. Or beliefs are too conflicting. (Not like I'd date him anyway...) More on that later. Anyway
He stopped crying rather quickly.
Alan said that he hated himself for being afraid of death, and he hated himself for hating himself.
I said that that didn't matter and that life is whatever you make it to be.
He said he hated being insignificant, but he knew he'd never be significant.
I said that he was already signifacant in the lives of all the people who know him.
He said that there must be some purpose in life.
I said, life's purpose is whatever you make it be.
I said "And now to happier subjects..."
Silence.
Then his mom came. I would have talked about it more with Hunter, but my dad came right after that.


I don't know what to think.
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I could never date Alan. Our views on life conflict too much. I don't think I could ever date him anyway. All we ever talk about is video games and such. Plus I just don't like him in that way. I don't think I ever will. He's a sweet guy and all, I really like him, just not like that.
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What is reality?
Who difines it?
Tell me....


I want to know.


~Caro
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Jaganshi

04-18-04 8:32pm

"Reality is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain." --Morpheus

lol, To be honest, I've always thought that reality was however your mind decided it was going to be. So, there's really no use in worrying about it too much. After all, there is no spoon.

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H2OforDuo

Re:, 04-19-04 10:01pm

This is true.

~Caro

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Angel_Bob

04-18-04 9:12pm

Reality is what you make it.

I think the best relationships are formed on opposites. If people are too alike, you run out of things to talk about and stuff just gets boring.

I would've cried too.

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H2OforDuo

Re:, 04-19-04 10:11pm

Yea.
But I just don't like him in that way, anyway.

I don't know if I would have cried. I was apathetic throughout the whole conversation.

~Caro

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