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| melikepeas (profile) wrote, on 4-21-2004 at 6:54pm | |
| Current mood: Heart broken Music: Sad songs Subject: This week sucks ass |
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| Me and Damian finished. I was gonna go and see him today but i got really ill (cramps hurt so bad i threw up) and needed to go home. My phone ran out of battery. All this made damian all paranoid. I love him soo much, i wanna be with him to look after him and make sure hes ok and safe. But i cant. I cant have fun with my friends with out him feeling paranoid (and thus fucking his head up) and me ending up on ahuge giult trip. i need a life and my own identity, i lost that once before, i dont wanna lose it again. He cant get sorted while im around, especialy if im the one fucking his head up in the first place. I love him so much. I just want him to be ok and have a wonderful life where he doesnt have to be paranoid and can just flow. He needs to find himself, and be comfortable. but im not what he needs to do that, i with with all my heart that i was but im not. Ill miss him, i wish there was a way i could be friends with him but i get the impresion that he doesnt want that. My hand is so fucked up, two of the knucles have moved. I cant write. So im fucked for my exam tomorow. |
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derrangeddemon666 | 04-23-04 7:27am i never stopped you from having fun with your friends, it did fuck my head up on occasion but you should of just told me to shut up and live with it. I wish that you hadn't dumped me we had a future together i was sure but you have made your choice so im not gonna try and make you change your mind |