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brownsugar (profile) wrote, on 4-26-2004 at 5:28pm | |
Subject: ok this deffinetely tops off as a sucky ass day. |
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have you ever felt that the whole world is out to get you? that their one goal in life is to ruin yours. That you have no one, no one at all to turn to. As if everyone has just deserted you, left you... alone. Have you ever felt that the people who you called your friends... were your enemies now? As if that one goal in THEIR life is to make your life miserable. Sometimes it makes me regret ever getting close to anyone. I mean, what's the point, they destroy your life anyways. I mean, their human.. what to expect. They wanna crawl over you to get to their next point in life. It's like a ladder. You have to get to the top by yourself, if you turn around to help anyone else... they'll make you fall several breadths lower. possibly even make you fall flat on your face. That's what their job is. They don't care about you, no one cares about you. Theres no use in caring about anyone, because humans on the inside, are vicious. I lived a point of life where i helped everyone, I was nice to everyone, so nice... too nice, so whatd they do? steped all over me, left marks of their feet deeply imprinting in my back as they push me into a puddle as they run ahead of me: To crush me, kill me, just to stop me from continuing on. That's what they wanna do. That's all they want to do. Listen to this piece of advice: no one just nice for the heck of it... they're nice for a reason, they want something and soon. If they're not like that then they're the me i used to be. The me that got stepped over. They're that person who was naive and stupid and got stepped all over, and didn't know what else to do. That was me. now back to my seriously fucked up day. u sure you wana know what happend? well... it's as simple as this. I'll give you a tour of my day. I get up this morning to find my right eyelid unable to open, so i jump into the showed, because as per what i found out yesterday; a bug bit my eye! So i take a shower...put on my GLASSES and nearly break up into crying. I don't know why. So i'm walking to my car half unable to see and i trip. I nearly fall flat on my face. There's not much to expect from there but shit. first period is boring stuff. Second period everyone points out my glasses and make a big deal of it, it's crap. I mean, they're just glasses. Third, Mrs. fucking Lehv accuses me of cheating. I nearly broke out in tears as she said "Tina, stop looking at other people's papers." I was about to die. Firstly, it's not my fault that my eye was fidgeting, it fucking hurt like fuck. And plus, I was wearing my glasses today I can't see past 5 inces. Why does life suck so fucking much? fourth, I don't have sneakers so Ms.Moeller marks me a F... like fucking shit plese...its gym. Then, Chem, I get my chem quiz back. Yeah, I failed. I hate it when people are like "oh oh I failed" and then get a 100.. its pisses me off SOO much. Like everyone around me is like "OMG I FAILED." while i truly knew I failed as I didnt know the friggen material at all. I swear I hate it so much. Lunch. me. alone. again. Then I walk a little with Val and Mette. I don't get why Val doesn't like the library. I think tomorow I'll just spend all of lunch in the library.. its my refuge. Math. I don't know anything. I feel like an idiot in that class. I just want to walk out one day and be in regular math. sci.scholars. Mr.johnson's mean like shit to me saying "maybe you should study more for chemistry." and shit like that. saying stuff like "you're stupid" and so forth. why he is so mean I don't know. I felt like punching him. Then, I left sci.scholars and said I was going to the library.. then i got to the cafeteria and just sit there with anuj and saranya. we just talked. Then there was dance afterschool and i don't know what's going on, it's such a pain, and then random people come who aren't doing the dance, it's stupid stuff. I felt like kicking out everyone who wasnt doing the dance and to get things just in ORDER. it sucked so much dick. track. coach yells at me again. thats all i'm going to get into for now. enough venting. people are stupid conniving people. and iwish they could stop |
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HollishDanishM | 04-26-04 7:34pm I'm very sorry you had a bad day. I hope you don't accuse everyone of being a certain way, but I see where you're coming from- it's so easy to judge, and we all do it. I love you Tina, and I'm annoying sometimes, ya let's face i- all the time, but I am not trying to get anything out of you. Except of course your Indian pride MUAHAHA... Ach, you must think I'm crazy- I was on my knees today, but I rethought it- I don't wanna see them.
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