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| allmysinsx (profile) wrote, on 4-29-2004 at 9:01pm | |
| i don't know where this is coming from wow.. im gonna sound really ridiculous but this is how i feel right now, right here i feel like... im .... how to put this i guess using the people i became friends with this year yea.. that probably sounds crazy but i feel like i pretend they are people they aren't filling in the spots of two people that i lost, and it hurts like a bitch it still hurts, expecially today it makes me so sad... but knowing they probably still care .. its kinda reassuring... i wish i could go straight out and say what i mean, but i can't maybe its because im not sure what im talking about, or maybe i dont want other people to see what i mean, maybe i dont know what i mean, what im feeling inside and if your wonder " woahh! shes crazy " im not.. i have felt this way for a long time i didnt want to stay anything i wanted to pretend i was strong strong for people who aren't strong i didnt want them to know what i was feeling i hardly ever let people know what im feeling i dont want them to feel sorry for me i dont want them to feel bad for me i dont want them to feel upset for me i just let all the pain bottle up and no matter what, try not to break would i pretend my old friends are people they aren't .. no, because i know them... would i pretend people i just met are people they aren't... yes.. maybe.. probably not i wouldn't mean too.. i wonder if i can help it i mean shouldn't i be able to tell kristen? shes like my best friend i tell danielle sometimes or atleast i try i wouldn't want to talk to katie, she seems like she has enough on her hands never casey, it would seem like nothing to her, she would probably be like... thats it?! and deanna, i love her so much, shes really easy to talk to, but i wouldn't want her to look at me different. this is terrible |
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| Anonymous | 04-29-04 9:35pm Wow.... belle god how did you get so deep!? hahaha aww babe whatever you ever need to talk about anytime, i'm here for you and you can always count on me... anywassssss... you wanted me to comment.. i was actually just gonna tell you on IM but s'all good.. haha ... alright you are awesome .. and uh.. i love your journal? lmao hahaha ... your gonna love this arnt you bellle =D |
allmysinsx | Re:, 04-29-04 9:39pm why thank you kristen... woahh
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| fadedxtears | Re: Re:, 04-30-04 5:11pm there is pleanty of room on my hands for you and your problems. you're first on all of my "friends who actually matter to me" list. brielle? what's wrong? what's happening to you? |
| Anonymous | 05-17-04 7:45pm lmao... i did this one already... ahha.. im cool
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