05-02-04 9:48pm

You taught me the guitar!!!!

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Re:, 05-02-04 9:48pm

Thank you.

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05-11-04 7:35pm

No its not!
Nope. Nope. Nope.
=P



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Re:, 05-15-04 1:26pm

NOOOOOOOOO. I think I'm too late. I'm too lazy to check the date.

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Re: Re:, 05-15-04 5:35pm

Your safe too.

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05-17-04 9:28pm

well, when you figure out how to say what you want, remember to write it down on paper and DONT LOOSE IT! then type it in your jornal. we'll be waiting for you to do so.

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05-23-04 6:09pm

...just sitting here. Clinging onto a hope that I know isn't true. But it's hard to let go...I never thought that any day in my life I would feel like this. I thought everything had a happy ending...that it would be just like a story book. The prince saves the princess from the fire-breathing dragon...they all live happily-ever after. What total bullshit. All it does is get kids hopes up for the furture. Maybe I should write a story about how bad everything turned out in the end..then they can see what real life is like.

I'm so jelous of you. All the popular people like you and don't think your some quit weirdo. I'm so jelous of what you had. Maybe thats why I ruined it for you. Maybe thats why I hate you. Is because I can't have you. ever.

And then I'm so jelous of you. You had him. You had a happy life. And then what do you do? You throw it all away.

I'm nothing special. I'm not skinny..or pretty.
I'm just a monster. Tearing peoples lives down when I have the chance.

"What have I done? You seem to move on easy."

Do I not matter to you? Am I nothing? Yes. I am nothing. I'm just another girl who likes you...nothing special. I'm sure you have those all the time. They're just girls who think your hot. Ha. I think more than that. My feelings for you go deeper than looks...way deeper.
God. I say one mean thing about your "girlfriend" and you slap me. I don't understand you. I try don't get me wrong. But you never give me the chance. I mean..theres so many more girls out there besides her. She doesn't love you anymore!!!!
DON'T YOU GET IT!?!?! No. you don't. Your like me. You're clinging onto something that is long gone dead and over. But you don't dare compare it to what I'm going through...oh no. you don't. because I'm something that you don't respect. I'm something thats lower than you. So whatever I say to you..it doesn't matter. Not one tiny bit.

I'm sorry I ever cared.
I won't care anymore.
You could die.
And I still wouldn't care.
I'm sorry I ever thought you were worth my time.
You weren't and I don't think you will ever be.
I'm sorry I hate you.
I just need some time to think about this.

If you can hate so easily...then there was nothing ever there.

Nothing! Nothing! Nothing! NOTHING! That's right! There was nothing.

The kisses were NOTHING! You kissed me because you couldn't kiss her!

I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU...BUT WHY DO I LOVE YOU?!?!
Love..? HA. Love is just another meaningless word in the English language. If it doesn't matter to you. It shouldn't matter to me.

If I died. You probably wouldn't care. You would just go skip off with Madison when I lied there just rotting away.

I feel so worthless. You wouldn't even talk to me barley when I saw you for the first time in a long time. If I'm not worth your time...then your not worth mine.

Every picture I have of you. I am ripping it up and throwing it into the trash! I don't want any reminders of you.
NONE!



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Re:, 05-25-04 9:43pm

Im sorry.
I tried to let go.

I probably only hurt you more.

oh dear. when will I ever figure things out.


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Re: Re:, 06-02-04 11:29pm

Paul...
I...I love you.

and Im sorry.

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Re:, 07-30-05 11:49pm

woha... i wrote that...

i totally forgot about that...

hmmm.

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08-10-04 5:49pm

You fucking fusterate me to no end!
I want you to stop! Stop doing all this shit to me.
I never did anything wrong to you...
so just fucking stop before one of us completly looses it!


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Re:, 08-02-05 9:28pm

And I wrote that too...

hmmm.. funny. I laugh at myself.

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Re: Re:, 10-06-05 11:21pm

well kalie, I doubt if you'll even read this, and this is in respoce to something that is over a year old. Yeah, that huge rant you put up there. You chastized me for loving. deep, pure, untainted love. and I have this to say. The day you feel that yourself, you'll be in the same spot I was.

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