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| GoLdIe18 (profile) wrote, on 5-8-2004 at 2:01pm | |
| Current mood: aggravated Music: summer of 02' mix... Subject: mad at myself |
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pediatrist for my ankle problem...i have tendanitis in the back of my ankle, and i have no arch, so it makes my foot wobbly and messed up. New ankle brace..with plastic like forest gump supports haha, coach calls me the bionical man now..:o( ha, i love how my ankle kills 24/7 now..suckkks!! anyways, you ever get that feeling where you know you could do better, but you give up on yourself? this week...thats how i felt. I know I can get better grades. I know I can play even better at lacrosse. I just get annoyed or frustrated and give up trying. I just wish I didnt. If I study for tests and do work Id get better grades. If I run more and practice more Id do better. I just...mmm..i dont know. I did it again. I promised you after my breakdown wednesday night..that I wouldnt, im so sorry. I couldnt deal with anything, I got confused, upset, aggrivated and did it. :o( what do i do now?.....:o/ Thats not all the worries and problems going on this past week. People got me SO mad yesterday!!! ahh!! When someone at lax was like "oh yeah _____ and him almost went out, before you guys got back together that month" I was like oh yeah, i knew they were like "closer friends" but thats all I knew, and I knew she liked him. Then last night someone was like oh yeah "i knew they hooked up" i was like "WTF! they actually hooked up"...not expecting that one there.....yeah well i went on a spazz...I soo over reacted I KNOW. Im sorry. the person who told me was wrong. very wrong. I was upset for no reason. ugh that bothers me!!!! these frikkin dissapointments keep on comin. I neeeeed Camp NOW!!!!! yet, just finished talking to one certain Avoda lover...and... yeah I cant lie- im a little dissapointed about it, but I guess I'll have to find a way to get over it....someday somehow. and QC brightened the moment by telling me "un planned hookups are the best hookups". Thanks QC it will be an incredible summer! and anything unplanned like that is usually better, your right! yay for packing and counting crows! welcoming myself into the world of YRUSH summer...by listening to old 99-04' camp mix's and reading through Sleepaway. Camp is SO soon (53 days) yet so far away. good luck to everyone on finals. and welcome to summer everyone..get syced. *Fly Away With Me....Jodi* |
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| Anonymous | 05-10-04 6:33pm I'll forgive you, Jodes. But only if you help yourself. And I'm willing to help you--but please, let us get you better. Please.
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GoLdIe18 | Re:, 05-11-04 9:23pm Jen- i love u too. Thank you for everything. |