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playachika (profile) wrote,
on 5-10-2004 at 4:14am
Current mood: irritated
Music: burn
Well, school is dumb. girls are dumb. life is just dumb in general. Randee, a stupid crippled bitch, can't keep her comments to herself. I have not lost anything that dear to me. I mean maybe my reputation, but that's it. Not that i had one to begin with. I wasn't the slut people made me out to be. I was just a quiet little girl who tried to keep to herself. Well, that girl is gone. Im not that virgin everyone wants me to be, and i've learned to defend myself and just ignore everything negative people have to say about me. But lately, it's getting to me again. I shouldnt let it, but i feel as if i cannot help it anymore. i hat egirls. they are so mean and ridiculous!
Hmmm....
i wish most would just fuck off, like janna and randee for instance.
Theres good people like Courtni, whom i am now considered one of her best friends. she has listened to me cry these past few nights. Me and Bruno are starting to get get close, and i love that feeling. but people just ruin it. they don't know me...
Michael knows me inside and backwards. Janna doesnt kno me. she said so herself.
Im sad that peopel tell me i dont belong in a church... i am very religious. i believe in god. and im sick of it...thats really what i have to look forwrad to and thats why im alive.
~Lauren



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Anonymous

05-10-04 5:51pm

Wow, is that crippled part supposed to hurt my feelings? Cause it sure didn't. If you don't care what we say, whythe heck do you keep commenting on it? I find it sad you don't think you have lost anything that good. Obviously, you didn't appreciate Janna as much as you should have. Am I supposed to be jealous that you and Courtni are "best friends"? Cause I'm not. Good for you and Bruno too, that's great that ya'll are getting along better. And, you don't need to be going all haywire and yelling at me. I'm not trying to be a jerk or be me, that's not how I am. I'm just trying to help you realize the stuff your realing now. I don't want to keep fighting with you. It's pointless to me. I'm not going to waste my time fighting with you. Your opinion doesn't matter to me, so mine shouldn't matter to you. Oh, I heard you said I had to beg to play softball, um ok...I'm pretty sure I was the starting 1st baseman and didn't have to ask for that spot. But, ok whatever. I'm done fighting with you, hopefully we can just blow past all this and move on. I hope your life does pick up for you and get better. I wouldn't wish anything bad to happen to you. I'm glad you and Micheal are good. It's good to know your at least happy. I don't want you to think I hate you or anything like that. I don't, I just hate some of the things you do. But, that's my problem, not yours. So, hopefully, now we're done fighting and it's just over. That's all I have to say right now.

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Anonymous

Re:, 05-10-04 6:23pm

*mean

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playachika

Re: Re:, 05-10-04 9:53pm

oh no randee. that game, you sat out., got put in an inning before everyone? you begged for that one sweetheart. i dont like you. never did, never will. Janna obviously couldn thave meant that much to me if im over it. no, the crippled part wasnt supposed to hurt you, it was what i was thinking. you kno, this is a JOUNRAL makes sense dont it?

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Anonymous

Re:, 05-11-04 11:27am

dirty slut. stfu ho

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playachika

Re: Re:, 05-11-04 3:38pm

arent u supposed to be in school?

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re:, 05-11-04 5:59pm

Oh Lauren, Lauren, Lauren, your maturity level always amazes me. How did I think I could actually have a grown up conversation with you? Silly me...Anyways, Yes, I did ask to play because I love softball and I didn't want to sit just because I was hurt. There's nothing wrong with wanting to play. Ok, "sweetheart"? I never had to beg for a position, I got one. There was no begging. I am a better softball player then you'll ever be. Do you think I care that you don't like me or never did? Cause if were being truthful, I'm not that fond of you right now either. Personally, n my opinion, I think your personality just down right sucks. Moving on, the "crippled part", I don't care if you think it's funny I'm hurt, I don't care about anything you think. I got hurt, big deal. It doesn't phase me that much, so it shouldn't matter to you. You do realize though, when you are calling me "crippled", your friend Courtni is, too. That's such a nice thing to say. Cause obviously you must have a problem with me being crippled, so so you have one with her too? Just wondering....About Janna, it's your loss, not hers. She deserves better. Oh, also since this is a JOURNAL, I'm gonna tell you what I think. I think it's way past time you get over all of this. This fight happened what, 1 or 2 months ago? GET OVER IT. I think it's time you get over it. So, GROW UP AND MOVE ON. And do us all a favor and drop it.

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playachika

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 05-11-04 9:21pm

whoooose bringgin it up? NOT ME!
you think randee, you don't know. ive never been fond of you. ever since you came into the picture, janna got bitchy towards me. the final straw was doin greg, yes i realize, but no she was not a loss. im livin, im breathin, im good. i love my maturity level too! lol i dont have one! i dont htink its funny you got hurt, who said i did? you said that, dont start thatkinda crap with me because i NEVER said that. yes, my friend courtni is injured. so? janna is not apart of this, im over with her, you keep bringin it all up. stop. ou think i need to grow up? try again sweetheart. there, il call you it again. youve never had a grown up convo with me, so why try now? i dont neeed yer crap. you think your oh so much better. we're equal randee. no one is better than the other.
Lauren

oh yeah, learn to sign yer name so people kno who yah are instead of hiding behind being annonymus

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re:, 05-12-04 8:38am

no dear I'm not in high school like you are. you triflin whore.

dirty slut.

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Anonymous

Re: Re:, 05-12-04 3:30pm

ur the hoe- leave lauren alone u nasty ass bitch- and go the fuck to hell

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playachika

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 05-12-04 3:34pm

then obviously yah dont kno me

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playachika

Re: Re: Re:, 05-12-04 3:39pm

thank you whoever u are

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 05-12-04 9:45pm

Lauren, I wasn't trying to hide who was saying it. I thought it was pretty obvious it was me. I'm not scared to voice my opinion. And, yes I have tried to just be nice and just stop fighting because I hate fighting with people, but when I was nice, you wrote back being mean. Am I supposed to react to that in a good way? I'm trying to be honest with you. If you never liked me in the first place, that's fine. I have no problem with that. I liked you to begin with, I won't lie about that. But, my feelings changed. I do not keep bringing it up. I'm just writing you back when you say something to me or about me. I'm not going to just sit there and think it's cool that your calling me these things. And, no Lauren, we are not equal, not even close. Don't compare me to you, because the only thing we're equal on is that were both girls. I am not trying to act better than you. I just have a way different opinion than you. But, oh well, everyone has different opinions, big deal. Let's just please end it.

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re:, 05-14-04 9:25am

you fucking spic. Ahh your mother should've aborted you after you were conceived in the backseat of your uncles car..

fucking spic

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playachika

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 05-14-04 3:47pm

whats a spic? lol

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