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| dmlxoxo (profile) wrote, on 5-10-2004 at 5:25pm | |
| Current mood: sleepy Music: jimmy mathis- bubba sparxx (awesome song, u should dl it) Subject: "then whats left of me, ill give to you?"- j.m. |
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| its kinda sad. usually, i see this as such a secure relationship...someone i know i can always rely on, someone i see as one of the best people i know, someone i know who accepts my flaws and even when i act stupid and weird will be laughing with me, not at me- but lately this security hasnt been there. i feel like i went to sit down in a chair, but before my butt actually reached the seat, someone pulled the damn thing out from under me and now im sitting on the floor with nothing...by myself. every weekend we used to hang out, just do nothing, sit around and watch tv, go online, bake stuff. we havent done that since the week before april vacation. i used to get calls from her all the time, but now when i call her mom goes: hi! [that i havent spoken to u in the longest time voice], hang on a second....its danielle! [talking to her] remember her? i just feel like her time has been consumed with all this stuff lately, not that i can blame her for that, but she hasnt had any time---literally. she does stuff with other friends on weekends, but i dont go....3 movies in a row and i havent been invited to one. actually, i take that back, i was invited to the last one, but i cant help but think that the only reason y i was was because she was talking about it with someone in front of me. when i come to school in the morning, shes always off on her way with her morning posse to her class...today she didnt even stop to say hi. i walked over to her talking to someone she spends a lot of time wth now and stood there hoping, wishing she would say hi....NOTHING. when i make weird comments, which i am known to do, she no longer makes the wtf faces at me, she makes them to other people, in a mocking way. and although i know its just kidding, it hurts to know that shes not making the faces at me. shes doing it to someone else now. this has happened before, and it always hurts the same...ive been the most loyal friend there is- even when she didnt want to be mine. there just isnt any time for me any more. i cant talk to her about it, i just cant, i would start crying...its happened before. i dont want my best friend slipping through my fingers like this...i miss those blue cupcakes. | |
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goobs827 | 05-10-04 6:21pm aww danielle :( that makes me sad...she's probably just trying new things but considering how close you are there's no way that's the end of the friendship...give her time and she'll realize how important you are to her and things will go back to normal. If she doesn't, that's when you have the talk...but i'm sure things will turn around soon enough.. feel better <33 |
| Anonymous | 05-11-04 5:47pm hey babe- im sryy u feel this way |
Anonymous | Re:, 05-11-04 8:03pm hey its julie dont feel sad.. you have josh BROWER and jeremy :) |
awwbaby | 05-11-04 8:06pm nielle :(
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