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| thedarkerside (profile) wrote, on 5-12-2004 at 6:56pm | |
| It’s amazing how you can bring out the evil in someone when you simply just have a problem in your life. 7 months ago you find out that your daughter has a problem, but the part you don’t know is that its you. What do you do? Send her to a shrink OFCOURSE! Since that’s the solution to everything. I can’t believe that was over 4 months ago and I weaseled my way out of the shrink and the whole situation in its entirety. I also can’t believe I can’t let that go. I guess I’m just overly betrayed to the point where the word “forgiveness” doesn’t exist anymore, at least not under this roof. Sometimes I’m just like GET OVER IT! I want to let it go, but I don’t think I can, more of I know I can’t. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about it. I’m my own person….in this past year or so I’ve had to be more independent than I ever will have to be. I’ve kept my life on track so far, and I’m proud of myself for that. I’ve had to comfort myself in times of sorrow and lift myself up from the depths of despair and it hasn’t been easy. I’ve managed it all on my own. I guess maybe I am a true loner at heart, that and I have an immense fear of rejection from people around me… Well, my life will continue to be a never-ending mystery… I’ll just have to except it for how it is; the good and the bad. Oh, and this doesn’t mean I’m giving up my idea about moving in with Carinna around next year, hell yeah. Carinna, You’ve made me a happier person..and I thank you for that. Well, today has been an awkward day and to top it off I just found an Apple Jack in my hair…yes I did eat it. My guess is that it has only been in there for a minute or so … lol As for my day at school yesterday…I’m sure you can guess. GAY lol. Wheel barrels in gym, funny stuff as to running stadiums, not so funny lol yet I still laugh. Today was also again, gay. I think in times like these I am thankful for the friends I have that keep a smile on my face. I’m going through all my notebooks tonight and typing up all my poems, I think I might have around 20? hmm Long entry today. There will be longer trust me. Later |
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intensify | 05-15-04 5:16pm "I just found an Apple Jack in my hair…"
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