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| lynds4090 (profile) wrote, on 5-12-2004 at 9:05pm | |
| nothing i do is ever right. i try so hard. i try so hard to be involved w/ anything and everything. but no its never good enough for her. i don't understand. she was nothing in high school. she has nothing to compare me to. herself? i laugh. there was nothing there then a little girl who never broke the law or was involved w/ anything. she always blams it on grandma and grandpa. ok well that may have some of it. but you didn't see ANYONE in my family support me when i actrually thought singing was cool. but now that they have relized that i'm decent at it they will now support me. i hate it how they will only support me and give me praise on the things i'm "good" at at the time. right now they are bitching at me cause of my grades... last week they were saying how well i handeled all it. and were dissing my sailing shit. now that they reilize that i AM gonna be good at sailing and that i AM gonna be a girl who is actrually out on the race course sailing by them selves. so now they are like i think thats cool... and bitching bout my grades. i don't understand. i can't have a constant rate of which i'm good at. it would be hella awesome if they would just fuckin leave me alone! i dont' care when dick's boat goes in teh water... its not mine! and now that ryan got into a car ............. nm i'm crying i don't want to i'm going in my room nightt linds |
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.J.E.S.S. | 05-12-04 10:06pm aww linds. :0(
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| lynds4090 | Re:, 05-13-04 2:54pm yeah!! my mom checks it everyday too! she comes home w/ a new print out everyday! it feel to me like that the only thing we talk about is school. i mean what a great mother daughter relationship. i'll only remember my mother as teh woman who hounds me everday afterschool, at dinner, before i go to bed, and before i get in the car to go to school. All about my fuckin grades. i don't understand. i relize that grades are a big part of schooll.. that is why we go to school. and i know that i will infoce grades w/ my kids to butnot to that extent. if she would just leave me alone and let me learn from my mistakes and let me acmplish somthing that doesn't include her telling me about it first i would have a better feeling about myself and there for do it more often. i know she knows what she is doing it. she my deny it but i know that she is like messing up my life and not leting me have fun. i wish she would let me balance everything on my own... i can do it! i've done it before. i just wish she would let me be.
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