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| Iwasthinkingthat (profile) wrote, on 5-13-2004 at 3:58pm | |
| Current mood: hurt Music: Yellowcard- Believe Subject: I could use a good listener right now |
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| right when I said that one called but I guess I dont want to talk anyways...way to go Karlene, way to go... So this morning started off with everything going wrong. History was good...we talked about WWII which is always interesting. Then it was the AIDs talk in gym. Then Child Psych which was fine I guess. Then english...I just wanted to cry. Im so screwed. Damn me. At least we are reading a book that looks interesting. Then my mom picked Sean and I up and we killed it. My mom and I at least. She just knows how to get to me and Im just so bad at taking it. I cant even begin to anymore. I hate myself for it. It all is my fault. I just dont have it in me. I hate me. We got applebees and walked to the Junior High and ate. Then he had to go to rehersal and I went home. I was locked out because I left my bag in my moms car. Im so frustrated by this point. She drove by and opened the garage not even looking at me. Shes mad at me. I just burst into tears. I hate it so much. So now Im here and so overwelmed. I feel so screwed up right now. I want to talk to someone but there isnt anyone I want or can talk to. I hate that too. I hate when I get like this...DAMN ME They painted up your secrets With the lies they told to you And the least they ever gave you Was the most you ever knew And I wonder where these dreams go When the world gets in your way What's the point in all this screaming No one's listening anyway Your voice is small and fading And you hide in here unknown And your mother loves your father Cause she's got nowhere to go And she wonders where these dreams go Cause the world got in her way What's the point in ever trying Nothing's changing anyway They press their lips against you And you love the lies they say And I tried so hard to reach you But you're falling anyway And you know I see right through you Cause the world gets in your way What's the point in all this screaming You're not listening anyway -Goo Goo Dolls- That song has played so many times this week in my cd player...I love it. Its so short but I love it. I have to work tonight and I really dont feel up to it. Im so dead right now. Im sorry, Im done bitching BYE |
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| Anonymous | 05-14-04 5:45pm Karlene dont forget im here for ya...you know ill listen!
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Anal-Smile | 05-14-04 6:36pm hey...dont feel so bad...its like against the law. i love you and im here for you. you know that. if you only knew how to use a phone you could talk to me. anyways. im here when you need me. love you
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Iwasthinkingthat | 05-15-04 10:49pm thanks you guys : ) |