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fallenfaces (profile) wrote, on 5-15-2004 at 3:13pm | |
Music: Bright Eyes -Saturday as usual Subject: I need something to fill up the days. |
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I'm sorry. I have no one to talk to or write to. So here I am. Don't bother reading this. I'm just going insane. Every day i feel myself leave my skin more and more. I don't know what to do anymore, what to say, what to think, where I'm going, what I'm doing wrong.. I blocked everyone on MSN, except two people or the people that never talk to me. Pulling myself away seems right. I'm stuck here, and I don't even know where 'here' is. I'm one of those kids, you know the one who sits home on the weekends, with nothing to do. I could be like him and bitch about people not keeping plans..when in reality he doesn't care. I'm so fucking important to him. I'm so sure. I'm so important to him that I mean nothing. I'm so important that it doesn't matter if I'm going to miss him. So important that when i was paying attention to him all he was thinking about was how others weren't. It's so frustrating. Why do I even bother.. and let it get to me? I shouldn't. But I do. I hope he finds more girls that are "so fucking hot" to make his day. Even though he's the one who said "It's not all about looks, the personailty is what draws us in." Bullshit. I'm just like a little kid. Stubborn and stupid. [edit; I realized my fadingfallenstar journal is me hiding. It's me, only fake. Only my happy thoughts. It's not me at all. This is. How terribly sad. So i guess what im saying is..I'm just a whiny little girl. Sad huh?] |
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this-acoustic-love | 05-15-04 4:49pm first of all, you always have someone to talk to, because you can ALWAYS, i repeat ALWAYS call me. Always.
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fallenfaces | Re:, 05-15-04 5:10pm You're not blocked, and you never were.
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this-acoustic-love | Re: Re:, 05-15-04 5:11pm *hugs*
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fallenfaces | Re: Re: Re:, 05-15-04 5:12pm i know.
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