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| werealljaded (profile) wrote, on 5-18-2004 at 1:13am | |
| Music: twisted method Subject: anti-emo |
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| a very dear friend of mine (i love you babycakes) calls me anti-emo because with every guy, i try my hardest to push and shove all my emotions down and to to pretend that i don't give a fuck. but every once in a while, i meet someone who makes that very hard to do. the current "whatever the fuck you call him"- is one of those. and i HATE it. i try to put on my best performance, but i was never and A student in drama class. it's all an ego thing my friend. if i admit to being emo- then my guard is down, and i am powerless, and i loose. i can't cope with loosing, especially when it comes to emotional shit. i think he cares for me too, and if not, then he must have gotten A's in drama because he comes off as so. but if he likes me soo much, then why would he want things to be like this between us? and another thing, whatever you do when you're older... DO NOT LET YOUR CHILDREN WATCH LIFETIME MOVIES! those things have soured my trust in guys from before i had boobs. every time a guy seems into me, my paranoid side comes creeping in, and i think of a different million reasons why he must be pretending to be into me. maybe it's all true, maybe it's my inecurities, who knows?? |
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| Anonymous | 05-20-04 2:36pm its me babycakes ;)! you have your guard up for a logical reason, and one day you will let it down when you are comfy with it. You take the easy way out - you just dont care. It's a good defense mechanism but it could fuck you in the end :(. Oh and yes I agree DO NOT LET YOUR CHILDREN WATCH LIFETIME MOVIES - it'll scar em alright! oh and i think *he* is scared of losing the both of you thats why its taking so long and im sure its not really his choice for it to be this way, only time will tell. Love you. |
| Anonymous | 05-25-04 6:50pm i think the opposite is happening to me. i used to always be overly emotional, and lately, i've been afraid of them.
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