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| smilesideways (profile) wrote, on 5-18-2004 at 10:27pm | |
| well tonight i feel like bearing my soul to the world. though sometimes i wonder if souls really do exsist. whether a lot of things exsist. i really think tonight made me think that they do. I watched keiran, wow. he's soo beautiful and perfect. he is a living miracle, brooke and bryan are soo happy. and well. that's amazing. i just love the feeling when i wake up in the morning and know that today will be good. when i lok back on life a year ago i think of all the shit i felt. of how i was never satisified with who i was, where i was, and who i was with. i had lost liz and i was completely lost. i feel so dumb looking back. if someone can treat you liek that and then completely just walk away from a year of friendship it's not worth it. i think of the boys that effected me. i'm such a drama queen. my life seemed so inconsistent. never feeling like i had done what i was suppose to do, so hollow you could say. but today. this very day from a year ago. it's perfect. i love my friends, amanda and meg, my thirds. soo different from each other but we're the same because somehow we have this insane cosmic connection with each other. and i love them. they're my family and you can't lose family. they'll always be there. and i will treasure every stupid memory we make, because when all i want to do is cry i think of boston. the beach. super highways. long talks at d'angelos. shows. perfect memories with the most imperfect people i love so dearly. i love you guys. xoxox and jeffrey. the boy who makes me wonderful. he makes me feel so perfect and well i dno. just real, i feel so real around him. i never have to hide a stupid comment or not think something funny, when it prolly isn't, becuase he just looks at me and smiles. really smiles. because of me. the boy who slow dances with me in my bedroom to corney slow songs that i die for. who knows my favorite ice cream and brings me chocolate cake. knows the exact spot to tickle me. my love. <3 i honestly don't know how i ever got along without these poeple in my life. you guys are seriously what make life worth living. i love you every day because i realize how i lucky i am to have the best of the best people in my life. and no matter what shit you're going through. no matter how many fights we have. no matter what. rehcos and meg you guys have made me a better person. and jeff. thank you for loving me. ok. i'm done revealing my soul. g'nite. |
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| Anonymous | 05-19-04 7:18pm ya... last year year at this time totally sucked... all of ur friends totally sucked.......... |
mandeR | 05-20-04 7:26pm umm your wicked fucking hott. |
smilesideways | 05-21-04 4:18pm no not all my friends sucked. i had one good one. but we're not as close as we should be now, but she made life then worth living. |
Anonymous | Re:, 05-22-04 11:15pm if you're talking about meg davis she's a douche bag and you never should have been friends with her... hehe.. even tho i am rather pimp-tacular |
| WaterProofMscara | Re: Re:, 05-23-04 1:02pm hey cool..i dont want ur ovary anymore..ask one of your thirds if they want it..later |