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| jburt1 (profile) wrote, on 1-16-2003 at 9:50pm | |
| Current mood: grumpy Music: MXPX "good friends are hard to find" Subject: Confidence Justin, Confidence |
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| Well...tonight sucked. My voice was horrible and I can't sing. According to Jami, I'm fat, dirty, and unpopular! Lol - mostly the truth...I don't really think I'm "dirty." There's a song where the guy sings "we had a falling out." Right now, I kind of feel like that. I haven't talked to her all week, and it seemed like she's been blowing me off, probably what I've been doing to her lately. I'm just not sure of things anymore. I don't really want a commitment unless there's something really there. I think I still have some work to do before I know what kind of person I am and what I'm all about. I don't know why i let things get to me. I wish I didn't give a damn...but I do. Tonight I realized that as much as I've dreamed about being the top dog, I'm more comfortable just blending in the background with everyone else. Maybe my perspectives will change after March. This is my chance to prove myself to others, and most importantly...prove myself to myself. |
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fetherdstr479 | dreaming..., 01-16-03 10:18pm i dreamed of being top dog once...then i made it and dreamed of being just as much of a freak as i was before...which i eventually acheived and love where i am today! try it sometime, making your way DOWN the social scale haha...and yeah im a freshmen, but the entire school has always run on that schedule...so...bye!
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doctorandre2005 | 01-17-03 3:14pm I feel the same way Justin. I really feel like i need time away from Nicole to find out who i am, but i'm too afraid to break up with her b/c the only reason (i think) that my "friends" talk to me is because i'm dating Nicole. |