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| chuckitatthewall (profile) wrote, on 5-22-2004 at 9:21pm | |
| Hiya. Yesterday was a stupid boring birthday. It was probably one of the worst birthdays I've had. I don't want to make anyone feel any worse than I know they already do but I'm just going to say this and uh..sorry if you do feel worse. I know that Jessica knew it was my birthday and that it was probably just a brain fart but it really sucks when one of your friends says "Why are you in free dress" on your birthday. Then I can't remember if I said something or she just realized it was my birthday. That really sucked. Enough feeling sorry for myself. We went to some Japanese restaraunt called Kyoto Palace. They cook food in front of you. Its pretty cool but I hate Japanese food. Also the cook guy was Mexican. Kind of weird. The best presents I got were from my sister. My mom and dad gave me some ugly clothes and a Beatles C.D. I like the c.d cause the Beatles are good. It has the "When I'm 64" song on it. I listened to it and started crying. I'm done complaining about my birthday. My sister, Maureen, has really been getting on my nerves. It seems like she only has really mean things to say about my other sisters, particularly Michelle and Monica. She keeps going on and on about how shes so disapointed with Monica because of her decisions and who she has become. She just hates Michelle for everything and says that Michelle brings out the worst in everyone. Maybe she does but I don't care to hear about it constantly. I'm the only one that Maureen has who is willing to listen to everything she talks about so I suck it up and listen. Sometimes I can't help but wonder if she talks this bad about me with other people. Normally I don't just go and insult her and nit pick everything that is wrong with her unless I'm pissed...like right now. She makes me feel bad for liking my other sisters and I really think that thats wrong. Then I try to tell her I don't care to hear anymore about what she thinks about Monica and Michelle she says "Oh, this is just to hard for you to understand." So she trys to tell me that the reason I don't want to hear anymore is because I just am to stupid to get it. I understand..all of it. I think deep down somewhere she knows that what she is doing is very wrong and mean. How can she go around criticizing others when she is very far from being perfect. She has no friends and all she ever talks about is work. I am forced to endure rides in the car with her where all she says is "Did I tell you about this guy who came into the shop?....." (She works at Postal Annexe) It's so annoying. I'm tired of hearing about all those "retarded" people that go into the shop. Or those "pushy,snobby,bitchy" people. I'm sick of even talking about her. On Thursday I was freed. Freed from being forced to be friends with Sarah. Yes, it is finally over. Let me tell you the past year and half has sucked. I hate being friends with her. She called me a bitch when we were in a fight once but I forgave her because we give her a ride home and other shit. I am a bitch..sometimes. I'm a bitch when I have to be but the way she called me one was completely unfair. She said "Well you always act like such a bitch when your with Louise." YEA WELL GUESS WHAT ASSHOLE?! Shes a true friend. Shes been my friend since kindergarten and I can trust her. Shes not using me. I would go to her with serious issues before I'd go to Sarah anyday. I don't think Sarah really cares. She may be prettier than me (grosser too) and guys may like her more but I'm just gonna bet that I could keep a guy around longer (without talking about sex or promising any things to do with sex) than she could. There is more to love than saying "Oh! I like you!and you're hot so that means I love you" or "I'm single. You're single. I love you". Its so fucked up. You can't just say that you love somebody that you met for 5 minutes. No wonder "relationships" only last a few days or weeks in Jr. high. At a dance when she liked some guy she kept looking to up to her right and fluttering her eyelashes and giggling. Holy fuck. Its so fucked up. The guy thought she was weird. HA! YOU DUMBASS. She completely changes when she is around a guy. I don't think that I change that much. I get much quieter just cause I'm naturally shy. So the way I'm going to end our friendship will be very gradual. When she calls, unless I'm extremely bored, I won't call her back. Then I'll say "I never got the message" or "I was really tired". Technically thats true. I'm tired....of her. I really want to see what she turns out to be as in 10 years. She once told me she wanted to go to St. Marys college but shes kidding herself. Sarah has absolutely no motivation. She'll never make it into St. Marys unless she changes a lot. I'm not betting on that. THIS IS NOW REALLY BORING. BYESTER. WHOEVER READS THIS PLEASE COMMENT ON THE SARAH THING.WELL YOU DON'T HAVE TO BUT IT WOULD BE NICE |
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LoupGarou | 05-24-04 1:16am I swear I knew it was your birthday. The day before I even intended non buying you a present. Unfortunately I think the fact that we had five (and it turned out six) tests the next day kind of made me forget. I still feel like an idiot. I saw you in free dress and was in the middle of asking you why when I realized it was your birthday. I am soo sorry! Over the weekend though I did get you a gift and I hope you like it. I still feel so bad!
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