05-25-04 6:10pm

Why are you getting mad at everyone then when you are the one who told everyone "tony pushed me down the stairs!!!!".... its what you said tony did that pissed everyone off.
Its not the first time somthing like this has happened.

he treats you like a ''princess'' cuz he doesnt want you to leave... and he freaks out about the stupidest things to you. he has you so wrapped erica and its gonna bite you in the fucking ass one day. your my best friend and i dont wanna see that happen to you. your so much better than that. Im not just writting all this cuz of "The Latest Incident"... i am writting cuz i see how he has you act when i was there for Christmas. You are completely different, and i think its gonna wreck our friendship. and i dont want it to.

I dont know what else to say

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Re:, 05-25-04 11:03pm

I am gonna have to agree with Andrea on this one she is right about Tony and you are blinded by his so called love its not fuckin real wake up little girl cuz someday its gonna be more than a push here or a slap there trust me been there done that

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Re:, 05-26-04 4:47pm

You know what Andrea, YOU HAVE CHANGED TOO! you have changed so much since you moved there and made all your new friends!! I acted different because i thought you wanted me to, i knew you changed, so i tried to figure out how you were now and i tried to act like that. it ahs nothing to do with tony. and tony has treated me like a princess since the first day we met...its only gotten better since then. and i dont think its him wrecking our friendship, but i agree with the fact that our friendship is getting wrecked. i spent all last night crying on tony and crying whenever else because i feel like we arent even friends anymore...but i am getting off the subject. nothing has changed about me...not for the bad anyway. all i know is theres good days and bad days. and the good days are when tony and i are just doing what we do, hanging out and talking...either that or the few times i get to see you, and the bad days are when i remember when it used to be us hanging out and making plans together instead of me TRYING not to make close friends or even new friends so i dont risk losing you and you going off making tons of new best friends and traveling all over with them.
now i dont know what else to say

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Re: Re:, 05-26-04 4:51pm

well im going to have to dissagree with both of you. im not blinded, i know when bad things happen. and i honestly think it is real. why would he stay with me after all ive put him through if he didnt love me. he stood on the side and helped me with all that dusty shit, he tried to get us together because he wanted me to be happy....anything i wanted that would make me happy, whether it hurt him or not, he would help me get, or at least try. ive never felt a more real love than that. im sorry that everybody seems to have this huge problem with me being happy. and im not going to end up getting abused, and im not already getting abused. and not every guy who does one or two ACCIDENTAL things is going to end up being an abusive maniac, and khristina im sorry your guy actaully ended up being like that. but tony isnt that guy, hes a good guy and nothing but good things is going to come from me being with him.

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Re: Re: Re:, 05-26-04 4:57pm

P.s to Andrea's first paragraph:
I didnt tell everybody... i didnt even tell a few people, i told 2 people who were in the same area. plus it was right after it happened and i couldnt breathe because i was crying from all the yelling going on between tony and his mom. the very next day i told those TWO people exactly what happened.

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Re: Re:, 05-26-04 8:34pm

blinded by his so called love huh...so you really know how me and erica feel about eachother.have you really been inside my head,no so you dont know if i love her more than anything in the world or if i think shes as worthless as a peice of dog shit.but as far as im concerned it was the first on. i do love her and she loves me where happy and well im pretty sure we will be together for along time

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05-26-04 11:46pm

then why did you address your entry to EveryBody, if you only told to ppl? how come you called my up and had to leave so that Tony couldnt hear what you were saying? Saying that he called you a slut and said that you were prolly sucking on some dudes dick? I cant even remember his name cuz i am so pissed off! Telling me that he was trying to pull you down to his room which made you fall!!! putting his fist up to your eye and saying that he is gonna punch you? you told me that he said that that night was gonna be a living hell for you!!! how is any of that acceptable. you dont say or do that stuff to someone that you love!!! and if he loved you he wouldnt threaten with slitting his wrists and saying he is gonna drink your nail polish remover!!! saying that its just like romeo and juliet!!! THAT IS NOT LOVE!!!

Im thinking you would have stopped everything sooner than waiting untill everybody hated tony if it wasnt true... if everything you told me that night wastn true. but why would you tell me IF it wasnt true? huh? are you my best friend? i sure in hell thought that you were... and i hope that you werent lying to me cuz there goes all of our dreams together.

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Re:, 05-28-04 12:14am

Ok, im sorry to be so bitchy and sarcastic towards you, but its come to it. havent you ever heard of gossip?? thats how EVERYBODY found out. i told james, he told nickie, she told other people and on and on. its not that hard to figure out

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05-29-04 10:27pm

DUH!!! i was just making a point. like i said earlier... you wouldnt have waited this long to tell everybody that it wasnt true if it wasnt true.

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Re:, 05-30-04 7:21pm

I didnt wait long at all andrea, i told people who asked me about it and who found out from other people the truth, exactly what i said in here. everybody only knew what wasnt the truth for a day max. But people were still bashing on tony so i put it in my journal so everybody could see it.

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Re: Re: Re:, 06-01-04 7:04pm

You dumbass you don't have to think that she is as worthless as a piece of dog shit to abuse her your afraid of losing her so you have to do shit to hurt her so you can tell her that your sorry and how much you love her and ass its not the first time you put your hands on her she has told me of plenty times even though she don't wanna remember it and don't try and come at me like your all big and bad cuz your not and I'm not in the mood for this shit anymore as far as I'm concerned if Erica wants to be with you then she only has one sister cuz I don't have anything to say to her

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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 06-01-04 10:14pm

Thats pretty stupid of you Khristina....i guess you never really loved me like a sister like you said i did because if your going to "dissown" me because im telling you the truth and you dont want to believe it then thats pretty dumb. i thought you cared about me more, but you sure seem quick to give me up. i am going to stay with tony andi want to be with him, so do whatever you want, keep me or get rid of me. i kind of feel like a childs toy that the kid has grown out of but you cant decided whether to get rid of it or keep it. i feel like an item now. im a person you guys, you have to remember that. you cant force me to choose between you and someone else, and this is directed towards you and andrea. i already talked to venita about all this, its strange that she believes me, especialy since i never really talked to her about anything, but my best friend and my sister, who know alot more about me than some people, wont believe a word i say. why cant you guys just let me be happy, you guys are making things worse than they need to be. but i can tell you what andrea, this is the last time i tell you anything, because you make a huge fucking deal out of nothing and once i try to explain myself you either dont believe me no matter what i say, or you make me feel like im the dumbest person on earth by trying to make me sound like im wrong about everything. but you all do what you want, interfere with my life and make things out to be horrible when they are great...its fine with me, but when you all finally get the picture that nothing bad is happening to me and isnt going to happen, then maybe we can all get along again and act like human beings.

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 06-01-04 10:27pm

i would like to say something.... you guys think tony is beating me so i will stay?? dont you think i would leave?? and then i hear that you think tony is treating me like a princess to cover up for him beating me?? i would still leave if he was beating me. im not as stupid as you guys seem to think i am. and tony doesnt control me. you obviously dont know anything about our relationship. andrea, you should know, we used to make jokes about how tony was my bitch and i had him whipped....well its pretty much the same except less vulger. he isnt my bitch he just does everything i ask him to do and things he can just tell i want him to do. he does anything for me. but im sure im just wasting typing energy because knowing you guys, you wont beleive me because you have to make your lives some kind of real life soap opera for some form of entertainment or something. but thanks for being there for me like you always said you would...no seriously, i really love that you guys team up together to stab me in the back!!

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06-03-04 6:28pm

1) we believe that you are happy... it only took one time for you to say it.

2)We did care about you... thats why we made it a big deal.

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Re:, 06-03-04 6:31pm

you DID care about me?? whats up with that?? and you guys dont need to make a big deal. it should only take that one time of me telling you guys i was happy to drop it.

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