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| mle (profile) wrote, on 5-26-2004 at 9:34am | |
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so i'm done with school. but we get our yearbooks at our luncheon on friday. and we dont graduate until june 6th. stupidness. but between now and then, i'm stuck attempting to scrapbook 3 trips. grr. why didn't i do this years ago? went to chicago on monday with marcus... it was my graduation present from him. that sucked: between the trains coming in late, taxi problems, etc. we were in chicago for less than 6 hours... but on the freezing-cold trains for more than 9. i really wanted to go shopping for a long time... uh, i got to go to 2 stores: h&m and urban outfitters. worked out ok i guess, but i was still way bummed. i don't know... i've become obsessed with shopping and buying new outfits lately... i've probably spent $350 on new clothes in the past 4 days. good thing nearly none of it was my own ;). it sounds so silly... but i feel like cady from mean girls. haha. anyways... it's gonna burn for me to say this... but we done been fell apart... tell me why i should stay in this relationship when i'm hurting, baby, i ain't happy, baby... i'm twisted cuz one side of me is telliin' me that i need to move on on the other side i wanna break down and cry . usher . burn . marcus. marcus. marcus. we've nearly broken up twice in the past month. and i can't stop thinking about it. every time we're together, it seems to get more and more miserable. i hate him so much. but i'm so scared. i keep thinking if i hold out, i'll get over this, and somehow we'll forget that i'm going away to school until the day of (when everything will come crashing down.) but i'm not as stupid as i would like... so tell me: is it better to stick out the bad times because everyone goes through them, or throw in the towel once major difficulties arise because obviously it would feel right if it was meant to be? grr. i wish i was free of him and at msu right now. none of this anticipation shit. |
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spud | 06-05-04 1:01am i say the bad times are worth sticking out.
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naztymizzbella | 06-05-04 4:02pm it is better ta stick out tha bad times cuz they shape yoor character and define who yoo really are.
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