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| glitterkisses (profile) wrote, on 6-1-2004 at 7:29pm | |
| Current mood: sad Subject: I just dont know what to do |
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| I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say. I don't know how to prove anything that I feel inside to you, I just don't know. And i'm afraid if I don't do something soon, it'll be completely out of reach, and I'm afaid if I do , it wont matter and I'll just make things worse. I just dont know. I have never hurt this much about something like this, in mylife. Each breath just gets worse, and you dont even care. Which makes the next step ten times harder to make. Why can't I just fucking shut my mouth. I am such a bitch, god, I'd probably hate myself too. God I'm so sorry. Ughh anyway, me and Jess went for a run, then we jumped in the pool, and omg it was sooooooooooooooooo cold! Holy shit! lol but it was fun! So tonight were going to stay up all night, and just wake up tomorrow go to school come home, and hang out. Fun fun. I don't know what I would of done w/out Jess today, I'm broken inside and as much as I try to not let it show to anyone, the only person I can just let it not run through my head every second, of every moment, has been when I'm hanging out with Jess. So I'm glad, she's here for me all night . I'm so scared to even think about how terriable things could get from this point on. Everything's falling apart, and I have no one here, to catch me. No oneI want there. No offense. Right Now Jess is the only person I want to be around because I'm afraid of hurting someone else. And Jess , it wont happen. I have never felt like such a bad person in my life, like I do now. All I want to do is just break down and cry, and I am trying so hard to just pull it together. Espically when you're around. akdjfkadjflkj I'm so sorry |
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.j.e.s.s. | 06-02-04 11:39am <3 <3 that's right jess i'm here for you allllllll night long ;0)
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