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| dmlxoxo (profile) wrote, on 6-4-2004 at 4:36pm | |
| Current mood: drained Music: i will remember you- sarah mclachlan Subject: so we have two days left....my mind is already on vacation. |
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| thats it. im done. despite the fact that i still have 2 more days to put in, my mind has decided to be done for weeks, but i never realized that it could take such a toll on you mentally. im sick of this over-achieving town. im sick of report cards. im sick of tests, homework and those stupid award ceremonies. im sick of the people who start bugging out when they get a 98. today was the worst day ever. i honestly bombed that math quiz, and that was my last chance for a b. i have a b minus, WITH THE PAPER AND THE BONUS PROBLEM. what happened to me? i used to be good at this. ive been so lazy lately, i cant even remember the last time i studied for a math quiz, not because i didnt need to (obviously i do, ive gotten c's on my past 3 quizzes) but just out of pure, unmistaken laziness. i have no motivation, what happened to me? i sit here reprinting my newly revised stupid math bonus paper which she said "wasnt good enough" and doing the bonus problem. i came home and cried. i cried walking from math to italian....and it wasnt necessarily for my grade. it was for me. i used to be so motivated and so "study study study"....not anymore. i honestly dont know where that spirit went, but i wish i had it back. i wish i werent lazy, i need this b, so god help me: ms. a, please, have a heart. she saw me cry. i hate when teachers see me cry. maybe these 8 bonus points will bring it to a low b. any b will do.....any b at all. i hate awards. i feel like i bust my ass for a whole year and i dont get recognized for it, when other people who are "naturally smart" and do nothing but get a+'s anyway the whole time get a certificate. i hate those people, u should have to work to do well. its so damn competitive. and i hate that i let it get to me. uggh god, thats it. please let me have the strength to make it through the end of this freshman year without breaking down....i cant afford to do that. xoxo-danielle ps- please disregard this entry if it offended anyone at all, im just blowing off steam. no harm meant. |
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lizzy | 06-04-04 11:19pm danielle don't worry about it...EVERYONE loses all motivation their last few weeks. next year, you'll pick up with your typical enthusiasm. in the meantime..you won't have to care VERY soon, cuz summer will be alive and kickin for ya :) |
briggs17 | 06-05-04 9:13pm YOUR ICON IS MY LIFE DANIELLE!! |
| Anonymous | 06-06-04 12:42am can u say ur too stressed out? think somone needs to chylllll---oh, and btw---u represent all that is "this overahcieving town"--but good try |