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| lifesuxsodanz (profile) wrote, on 6-10-2004 at 3:01pm | |
| Subject: El čl...(I think only danielle knows what that means) |
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| god I really really don't know what to do...nothing has changed it's still the same shit that it has been this whole time. It's keeping me up at night it works it's way into my dreams just to confuse me more and then I wake up thinking about it. I feel like I need to deal with it but I can't bear to because I know what it means and I know what has to be done...and I can't it's so unhealthy but I can't stop. I just feel...trapped like I've compleately fucked myself over...but what else is new I suppose. Right now I just feel...alone but I don't want to be any other way I don't want to be touched or kissed or even looked at and I'm not used to it...this feeling of apathy towards love or almost love or...idk whataver you want to call it at this age. Maybe it's because I've been through too much lately maybe I'm just trying too hard to focus on life and learning to be happy living maybe I'm moving on from a lot of things. Maybe it's just the situation, maybe I'm just in an emotional rut... I think this is from chasing liberty and as pitiable as it is that I would quote a mandy moore movie it's so true...sometimes it really does take a big gesture...I need to find someone willing to do that for me...someone who actually cares this is random and it makes no sense...have a nice day ~Jess~ |
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| Anonymous | Hey Jess!, 06-12-04 10:19pm |
| Anonymous | Hey Jess!, 06-12-04 10:21pm If you need someone just to listen you can talk to me and i promise i won't lie to you!lol
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