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| sugarjackj (profile) wrote, on 6-21-2004 at 10:39pm | |
| my hurting is not some teenage "love" kind of breakup shit. the whole "i loved you and you broke my heart" thing is a bunch of SHIT. first off YOUR FUCKING 16 OR 17. Things happening now in your life are inconsequential. unless your mother likes playing fucking mind games with you. at this point in your life you are a stupid kid with no clue about anything that will happen to you in the future. and if your not talking to family the word "love" mean absolutely shit. you dont know love. your in a fling with someone who will dump you in an instant for someone else with the drop of a hat. its not love, its teenage lust. your heart is broken? i dont think so. thats more bullshit then i even care to think about. your heart is such a strong thing. and even as you think its breaking.....its only bending. it bothers me that people even think that their "pain" is so bad from a breakup that they should die. DO IT. kill yourself no ones going to care. the less "woe is me" act the better. my mom is playing mind games with me again. my life with her is based on lies, anger, guilt ,memories and love. i love her so much, yet i feel so shunned. as long as nothing is serious everything will be fine. i love her but im glad that i dont live with her. everyone in my life notices my abnormalities. EVERYONE. everyone in my family is so sorry for me and my sisters because we never had a normal life. never a normal childhood. im sick of pity and in sick of living with this. i know i will never be normal. im sorry if that inconveniences you. im just trying to keep myself from having a breakdown. im hurt, im venting to an online journal that no one reads and once again..........i just need someone here. |
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spud | 06-22-04 6:27pm i read it.
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sugarjackj | 06-24-04 7:31pm that makes me feel a little better.
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