06-23-04 12:54am

*cough*
Some of this just isn't true, some you tell yourself because it's easier to believe, and then some is true.

Stop being so fucking stubborn.

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Re:, 06-23-04 10:17am

Yeah.. maybe thats is.

Maybe you are right.

Maybe all I said was just a bunch of fucking bullshit, eh?

Yeah.

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Re: Re:, 06-23-04 12:35pm

I didn't say all of it, did I?

But I am right. You are being stubborn.
Why don't you just turn and face the facts? You want him, don't you? And you could quite possibly need him as well.

He loves you. Has it EVER been ruined with Bryan? Honestly?

He'd do anything for you. You know it's true. You're the one holding back.

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Re: Re: Re:, 06-24-04 2:34am

*shrug*

I don't know if it hurts worse to be without him or to watch him hurt because of my stupidity.

I don't know how he feels. I call him, open up, tell him how I fucking feel and it does no good.

I am holding back, because I dont know what he for sure wants. I, however, know that I dont want him to end up like he did last time. Just because of me.

It's not even close to worth making me happy if he is drowning because of it.

I won't just sit back and watch him fall with me sitting here taking all of the glory.

It's not going to happen again.

It's not worth it.

Bryan deserves the best... that's not me.

You can't tell me Bryan doesn't deserve better.

You know he does.

He deserves so much better.

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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 06-24-04 1:48pm

Sometimes what people deserve isn't what they want.

You don't know what he wants? Ask him.

He loves you.

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