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| werealljaded (profile) wrote, on 6-27-2004 at 1:45pm | |
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| so i am sitting here and thinking about feelings and shit. no, i'm not in an emo mood...but just trying to sset myself straight. a while ago, matt told me that he thinks he loves me. not that crazy kinda "in love" but the kind that just happens with time and after really getting to know someone. almost like a best friend kind of love, althoguh he said it's more then a best friend type of feeling. i couldn't say it back bc i honestly wasn't sure what he meant to me. but i think i feel the same. because he is one of the few people that i care FOR. there are two types of caring, you either care about someone of you care for someone. caring about someone is just the friend kind of "i hope you get better when your sick kind of feeling", but to actually care FOR someone, i think is more intimate. like wanting to always be there, or when something happens, that's the first person you want to call and tell... or missing them when they're not around and thinking about them kinda a lot. i'm not sure if i'm in love... i don't think so, i mean i might be. it's just that i know him so well, and we fit together so well, and i know all his quirks and still like him a lot. i just know that i am so worried about likeing him more then he likes me, there's not much more worse then that. but i do know that he is the first guy i could honestly say that i care for and maybe even love. i've never wanted a guy to stick around this long nor have i ever worried about loosing someone so much. fuck, i think i do love him. i think that scares me more then loosing him. |
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| Anonymous | 06-30-04 10:55pm YOu sound so mature for your age. I am much older than you and I have never truly thought about feelings and relationships the way that you do. That is a scary thought because I have been in many "said" relationships. I guess maybe I have never truly been in love. Do you think there is a difference between loving someone in an intimate caring way, and being "in love" or is the latter of the two just passion and the adrenaline of the good feelings? |