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| sandatthebeach (profile) wrote, on 6-29-2004 at 7:41pm | |
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| I am entertained. By waht? By my own mind. Woo...I'm telling you it's a party over here. ::Stares blankly:: I'm telling you, I'm a bad person...I'll just leave it at that. Ok, so the last entry wasn't a "pity me" entry. I was just typing because I was fed up seeing some things. No really, I insist...my life isn't all that shitty. Yes, I have my "problems" but I know more than just a handful of people who have experienced so much more. Depression is not a joke. Depression isn't just your mood. It's a disease. I had never thought of depression as anything other than a "mood" until a friend of mine who suffers/suffered from depression pointed that out to me. Yes, we all say taht we're "depressed", I know I have...but you can't feel depressed one day but feel excited the next. It's like saying you know what? I'm a bit schitzo today and wake up the next morning saying that you are now paranoid. I do believe that you can experience short periods of "depression" without actually being diagnosed. I say this because I know I've experienced this period of time. But did that I mean I was suffering from the disease we like to call depression? I believe not. Because I got over the phase. And I could not diagnose myself of this disease because I am not a doctor. But I don't need to be a doctor to know that I'm not depressed. I'm not. I'm upset, I'm angry, I feel down, but I'm not depressed. I know my friend probably won't agree with me about experiencing short periods of depression (yes, I said short...a few months are mere seconds when compared to years and years), but I know she's probably smiling as she reads this because I no longer say that "I'm depressed" because I'm not. I'm "sad", I'm "angry", I'm "mad", I'm "upset", I "feel down", I am everything but depressed. And trust me, a few months of feeling "down" does not need medical treatment. After talking to friends who have been diagnosed with depression and are on medication, what I experienced a couple years ago was a short period. An emotion....it wasn't the disease. And feeling "alone" for a couple weeks is nothing. I don't know what it's like to have depression because I haven't been diagnosed but from what I hear, it's not pretty. That is what I have to say for now. ::hugs:: to the pear for helping me realize this. Btw, I have a xanga if you want to check it out. My username's Chuckleheadedchick. I don't feel like putting the link here...I will later, maybe...if I feel like it. It's in my profile and since everyone on my buddy list who uses AIM knows, I figured why not let the one's with AOL know my xanga too. Always, Sandy |
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