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| brokenmentality (profile) wrote, on 7-6-2004 at 5:08pm | |
| i just got off the phone with becky.... i miss her!!!! *cries. today i guess they went to times square and the mtv store, and they went and toured the SNL studio and they went to the virgin record store.... grrr.. i just want her here.. but im so happy because she's finally in "her place".... because we all know about the whole "becky-new york" thing! (example.... go to her journal) in other news.... WHY must he bother me so much. GAHHHH. stupid stupid stupid guys and their stupidness. why do you suddenly party all the time when you always told me that you had all these morals. were they all lies? was i holding you back from your "true self"? because honestly.. i dont understand how morals can just "change". i guess its a good thing we broke up... if i was just keeping you from drinking and partying... thats what you really want isnt it... well now you've got it. im not gonna lie and say im not concerned... but fine, have fun screwing your life up. turn out like your sister... remember how much you "admired" her lifestyle? you didnt.. but HEY.. its just highschool right? HEY... church can wait... besides last night there was this kick ass party.. and im just to tired.. HEY my grades dont have to be good, just half ass so that i can pass.... HEY i'll just go on being a loser the rest of my life because thats all thats expected of me. sorry.. i had to vent.... it just makes me sick. while im working my ass off, there are people out there who dont have to work for money, party all the time, completely waste their lives, and dont even appreciate what they do have. anyways..... i have a meeting tonight at work... something about "recent conflicts" that everyone has to know about or something.. i dont know. and then tomorrow is gonna be another work all day type of day. 11-4 at arbys, 4:30-10 at cindys. woooo.... my life is so fun. but wait... tonight i might make bannana bread... i mean comon... now THATS fun. ooooh yeah.. and i MIGHT even take a bath... i dont know.. relax? im not sure if i have time for that.. i mean comon... i could be scrubbing floors or something. BLEH.. its so hot out.... and i havent gotten out of uniform yet because im to lazy. lazy or tired.. one of the 2. im gonna go miss becky some more.. and to top that off im gonna think about how angry it makes me that i even think about him still.. and after that i'm gonna fume and wonder why he doesnt care enough to call and figure out what we're even fighting about, because i dont even remember.... then maybee i'll think about all my church friends who dont care anymore, and wonder what they have thats so important that they cant even be civil to me... then maybe i'll do some laundry... wait.. no.... meeting at work..... ok scratch all that... i'll just be generally depressed....... |
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glitterkisses | 07-06-04 6:14pm awww i love you |
lilkristen | 07-06-04 8:15pm aww hun u know why he doesnt call? cuz hes a fuckin moron who obviously doesnt nd never cared enough about u cuz if he did, he'd still care about u in some way... at least in the sense that he wants u to be happy... nd if he cant give u 10 minutes of his life hes soooo not worth ur pain... i mean, i dont know what happened but thats how i feel...
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.j.e.s.s. | 07-06-04 8:48pm ugh! i totally forgot aboutthat meeting!! i knw i would!! i remembered this morning when iw as heading out to babysit and i knew i'd forget and i was like oh i'll write mytself a note and then i was like oh no i wont i'm too lazy, i'll just remember and then i forgot!!
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brokenmentality | Re:, 07-06-04 10:40pm *laughs
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