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| silentcriez (profile) wrote, on 7-11-2004 at 1:15pm | |
| Subject: please love me or i'll be gone |
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| im standing here shaking in the doorway im standing here bareing all i have to hide walking in behind me theres a shadow hanging over me and i feel it...feel it watch me as i pack my bags i wanna just get up and leave watch me as i say goodbye down on my knees stay with me forever beating in my heart underneath this starlit sky were never appart im crying here using sleeves as tissues im crying here no longer will your phoney lines ring true to me im walking away from here theres a shadow hanging over me and i feel it... feel it.. watch me as i pack my bags i wanna just get up and leave watch me as i say goodbye down on my knees stay with me forever beating in my heart underneath this starlit sky were never appart lost in trasnlation to you lost in every broken heart you never knew dying in anothers arms tonight crying for another soul tonight and ill wonder how youll be when were appart wonder if youll have a lonely broken heart watch me as i pack my bags i wanna just get up and leave watch me as i say goodbye down on my knees stay with me forever beating in my heart underneath this starlit sky were never appart im lost in here dont know where to go right now im lost in here my eyes are blindfolded walking in behind me theres a shadow hanging over me and i feel it... do you feel it like i do.. - me we drive tonight, and you are by my side. We're talking about our lives, like we've known each other forever. the time flies by, with the sound of your voice. its close to paradise, with the end surely near. if i could only stop the car and hold onto you, and never let go... i'll never let go. as we round the corner to your house you turned to me and said, "i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent." and, i want to speak these words but i guess i'll just bite my tongue, and accept "someday, somehow" as the words that we'll hang from. and i (i..), i don't want to speak these words. cause i (cause i..), i don't want to make things anyworse. [x2] why does tonight, have to end? why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts. we'll skip the goodbyes. if i had it my way, i'd turn the car around and runaway, just you and i. --- I'm lying alone With my head on the phone Thinking of you till it hurts I know you're hurt too But what else can we do? Tormented and torn apart I wish I could carry your smile in my heart For times when my life seems so low It would make me believe What tomorrow could bring When today doesn't really know i did it i successfully hurt another person who only wanted the best for me..only wanted to see me smile.. someone who called me beautiful in sweatpants and no makeup.. straight out of bed...someone who just called to say hi and talk about nothing for hours and hours.. someone who i could talk to about anything and hed be there to comfort me.. someone who could make me smile.. and also get me angry.. someone who waited for me.. someone who lived for me... and i ruined it i lost it again.. and am a hypocrite of my own gospel... i preach every day about how ppl who hurt me and i hate them.. and then i go about my day just trying to make everyone feel the happiness i long for.. and all i can do is make someone else feel liek shit.. the person who makes me feel like im perfect.. i make them want to die do you know what its like to have someone tell you that you make them want to die.. keep in mind youw ere trying to make this person happy.. and i failed cuz thats what im good at.. fucking failing... Haiz n Daiz: i wont stop loveing you. you saved me form who i was, you were my reason. and for that i owe you everything i have.. im sorry i bothered you today. Vanished 1 2 2 0: im always like that...i find something amazing that i know i need and i know is perfect for me.. but im afraid to take the risk.. im afraid to get hurt.. im afraid of you leaving me.. im afraid of getting too attactched that i cant be ok on my own.. im afraid of commitment.. even though i want it so badly.. becuz with a promise like that theres more ways for me to screw up.. and thats what im good at.. screwing up.. and making the people who i devoted my time to trying to make smile i just make then hurt Haiz n Daiz: what did you want me to do amanda? you were hurting me, maybe you couldnt see it but everyone else did... i wasnt going to wait around for something if it wasnt going to happen just to get hurt even more Haiz n Daiz: i still love you even if you like it or not Haiz n Daiz: and i care Haiz n Daiz: i think about you all the time Haiz n Daiz: i just didnt see why youd do what you did Haiz n Daiz: so i left Haiz n Daiz: out of everyone i knew Haiz n Daiz: i trusted you the most with my emotions Haiz n Daiz: it hurt me to know you didnt know what you wanted Haiz n Daiz: after all thw times you said you wanted to be with me Haiz n Daiz: its like you changed your mind Haiz n Daiz: and i felt like shit Haiz n Daiz: the only thing i could think of was to leave and let you find out what you wantr Haiz n Daiz: i never ment to hurt you --- i hate myself.. and everything ive done... im sorry i failed you sean im sorry i hurt you im sorry i fucked up im sorry i ever messed up your life im sorry... |
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| Anonymous | 07-11-04 1:43pm amanda i know exactly how you feel, it kills me to hurt another person... and i did over and over but i didnt relize i was really donig it and im soo sorry for doing it and i sit here and cry and complain over guys hurting me when i go and hurt someone so perfect.. i know how u feel but this is life and hearts are broken everyday... and we broke some :-\ but they'll move on as much as im gonna miss him wow im just balbing again i hav to stop that but im always here for u i love u sooo much
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| Anonymous | i love you, 07-11-04 8:04pm hey manda its jess i love that song so much !! i keep listening to it over n over =) .. im practicing it so i can sing it with you =) your such a good singer manda your gunna make something outta ur self =) if you dont try im going to push u to it i know u can do it .. i know u love jo-jo n ur jealous of her becasue shes younger than u n u want to do the same thing .. but u could have .. u just cant be afraid to sing to people n cant be embarrased if you mess up .. your awesome n i love you BFF
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silentcriez | 07-12-04 3:53am thank you guys
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