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| TaoMan1121 (profile) wrote, on 7-13-2004 at 10:32am | |
| Current mood: ancy Music: 311 - Beautiful Disaster Subject: "Sometimes it's not what you did last night, but who you were with that makes all the difference." |
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| Sweet, sweet wonderful internet. How have I missed thee? Let me count the ways. My computer is STILL down, although I think we are getting closer to getting the borrowed motherboard to work. I am seriously comtemplating doing an "Office Space" to that tower when I finally break down and get a laptop at the end of the summer. So, how am I? As well as can be expected, which sounds worse than it really it. But no matter how smooth it goes, saying "goodbye" to her is never easy. Initially, this time went off without a hitch, but like "Lost In Translation" or an Eddie Izzard stand-up, this ache ages and gets more potent with time. Not a lot to do for the time being except just waiting it out. I wonder if it is healthy and wise to deny myself the things that I want under a continuing guise of... responsibiliity. I'm seeing an opening here, an opening for everything to fall into place (or blow up in my face, of course) but I feel the need to sit on it for a while longer. I'd like to say it's because I want to be sure, but that would be a lie; I'm quite certain. Menards Aphorisms of the Week: "Worry not about how you are percieved but how you perceive others." "Whom we love best, to them we can say the least." "Success in marriage is not so much a matter of finding the right person as it is being the right person." "If I take care of my character, my reputation will take care of itself." "There are many things that we would throw away, if we were not afraid that others might pick them up." ... I think that's my thing: I'm afraid of losing you, without even having a go at it first. Why no, I don't have a problem with instant gratification, why do you ask? Patience, Jason, patience. Still, the question remains: How do you ask a person to wait for love? P.S. Found the song I was looking for. Although my lover lives, in a place that I can't live, I kind of find I like a life this lonely. It rips and pierces me, in places I can't see, I love the rip of nerves, the rip that wakes me. So I'm dissatisfied, I love dissatisfied, I love to feel there's always more that I need. So come on home. You're where you want to be, Come on, we're chasing, everything we've ever wanted. I replace you easily, replace pathetically. I flirt with any flighty thing that falls my way, but how I needed you, when I needed you. Let's not forget, we are so strong, so bloody strong. So come on home. Moonlight falls, upon your perfect skin. Falls, and you draw back again. Falls, and this is how I felt, I cannot forget. I cannot forget. Come on home. Come on home, but don't forget to leave. |
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