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| moana (profile) wrote, on 7-16-2004 at 3:58pm | |
| Current mood: in pain Music: interpol - NYC Subject: i really am prey for the female... |
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| ok. yeah. i went to see mary this morning. not really morning. she picked me up at 12. noon. i got in the car, and she was sitting there, her hair got really long, down to midback, still beautiful, you know? the kind of hair that looks like it's jsut been permed? light brown, glows in the sunlight? like that. she was smiling, and i couldn't help myself, i started smiling, and we hugged, and then we cried, and we started kissing one another's cheeks and necks and eyes. she ran her hands through my hair, poked me in the cheek for my braces and laughed. "just like you always wanted," she said. just like i always wanted. isn't that a funny thing to say? we went out to starbucks. it's nice on friday mornings, there's hardly anyone there. she ordered me a tall american black with whipped cream. the way i drank it for 2 years. i had to turn it down. i got a bottle of orange juice instead. she didn't say anything. just smiled. we talked a lot about what we'd been doing lately. she asked me if i was seeing anyone. i told her all about blag. it was so easy, and she completely understood. i asked her if she was seeing anyone. and she started telling me about her ex, who'd broken up with her to go to college. she started smoking by then, offerred me one, and i shook my head and smiled. she raised her eyebrows. "no way, timmie quit smoking? oh the world is flat." she told me a lot about her ex. and i listened. then we went out for a ride. next thing i know, we're at her house. walking in there was like walking into a time machine. nothing changed. we went to her basement and hung around her gym (literally). she's still in such great shape. we played music, she laughed when i showed her what little i learned to play on the guitar. then we watched a movie. about adam. great movie. then we kissed. a lot. slowly. we missed one another. so we took our time. and we caught up. we didn't do anything else. just kissed. and before i knew it, it was 10 20 and i had to go home. so she drove me home. and we kissed again before i got out of the car. she's going to college, she told me on the way home. art school in france. i always hated france. she leaves on the 28th. she wanted to see me. i told you.... yeah. seeing her, the moment i laid eyes on her in the car was like falling in love with her all over again. no, it wasn't like falling in love with her, it was falling in love with her. she told me she was proud of me for making my life better. my gut really hurts right now. i'm gonna miss her so much. 10 months wasted. i don't know if i shouldn't see her again, if it would make it easier when she leaves or if i should see her as much as i can because it can't get harder than this. | |
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| Anonymous | kookee!, 07-17-04 2:19am tell me about it.. sometimes i think life (and leaving to the states) would've been so much easier if i never got involved with dhari.. but you know what?
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| Anonymous | ko0oo0keee, 07-17-04 8:49am sorry, lol didn't mean to say LIFE would be easier without dharo0oy cuz i know it would be hard and miserable as hell without him.. but leaving to the states will definitely be hard..
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