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| sendmemoney (profile) wrote, on 4-24-2002 at 10:49pm | |
| Current mood: calm Music: something corporate Subject: (...sometimes careful consideration can be the cataract that induces a revelation of peace...) |
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| as for the music : you guys got me. mainly alyson, kiersten and danielle. *~i don’t want to hear it. if you say you didn’t do anything, you are right. but sometimes it is what you don’t do that hurts the most. and then there is what you did do. the discomfort of this situation is not completely your fault ... but mainly, it is. and the fact that you fail to realize why i am so uncomfortable and upset only adds to the wall being built between us. even though there is no us anymore. maybe that is the key factor in my irrationality. maybe i am just finding things to blame you for to mask my sadness (if i am yelling at you, you will not notice my tears). i don’t know if i am writing this for you or for myself, but i hope you never see it. before, that same desire was meaningless to you ... maybe this time you will be less filled with spite and more with a need to restore what we had before all this happened. it all happened so fast. you were my best friend ... of three weeks (if we can’t get it back, does that mean it was never real ?) ... is that even long enough to develop a true friendship ? it seems to be taking me so long to get over all this ... i will be perfectly fine, then that stupid song that i love will come on ... and i will hate it ... and hate you. maybe if i delete it from my computer i will be alright. if only life were that simple.~* |
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everyhtinginbetween | <3 for you, and only you, 04-24-02 11:17pm i will always love thee. hehe |
thrubeingcool | swegs, or letters., 04-25-02 10:11pm mmm...good music choice. but i also love what you wrote, "but sometimes it is what you don’t do that hurts the most" very good line. |
| thrubeingcool | grr., 04-25-02 10:14pm jsdaskaa. it went through before i finished. even though all i had left was i love you, bye. but there you go, you will have it anyways. **"this is what i do when i cant get through the halls" ::mr. cinelli clasping hands in front of himself, swinging violently::** |