07-23-04 11:19am

IM SORRY!



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add on to her other comment, 07-23-04 11:45am

Look, Im sorry. I really am. I should have known...if it didn't work in the 6th grade, it probably wouldn't have worked again.
You don't have to be sorry for who you are. All your friends love you for who you are.

It's funny. You want me to give up right then and there. After all I've been through...NEVER! I'm sorry I won't give up, but sometimes giving up isn't needed.

I won't show my love to you anymore. I'll keep it locked away until the time is right for it to come back again.

And until then, let's just be friends. Our friendship has been through things like this before and we got through.
You're still the 'ozzunest' guy ever! ;)

I think my time here is done...

Hey, because you hate me...you're probably not coming to the pool party...but please come...for Lauren?

Adios.

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Re: add on to her other comment, 08-03-04 10:48pm

YOU HATE ME BECAUSE YOUR PLAN DIDN'T WORK!!!

Im laughing at you...because somehow..I sorta knew thats you were trying to do..
I knew it was too good to be true.

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07-23-04 4:31pm

some of the stuff u say is pretty deep.. but when ur hurt, i know how easy it is to get like that... best way to get over love is to find a new love... dunno how quickly that's gunna happen but if you dont find someone else, you'll never get over her...

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07-24-04 3:42am

DONT YOU EVER SAY THAT! YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS! YOU DONT DESERVE THIS! YOU NEVER DID! YOU NEVER WILL! so stop trying to be something your not. you are not like drizzit. you havent given up anything. you havent lost a part of you. your just putting your love on hold. and dont tell me that its not true, that you throu all that away because its not! listen to me. you mean the world to tones of people.
madilan, me, tori, kaile, lauren, johnathen, god, your parents, my parents, etc. you dont realize how much your loved. you dont realize that you dont desirve this suffering... this hell on earth. so stop thinking you do.... because its a lie. you are giving in to lusipher in a way. he whispers this to you (subchonchesly) and you repet them as if there your own. and dont tell me otherwise because deep down inside you know its true. you may not know it but burried down inside you is the knoladge that satin is taking you over. little by little. would it make sense that one, that has not given up there dignety and everything else to lusipher, would want to hate himself as much as you do? well let me tell you something.... ID DOESNT FUCKING WORK! and you need to realize that. open up your ears and listen for him. you may think that your ears are open but there not.... its either that or your around too much noise in a sense. "all im offering to you is the truth, nothing more." remember that.

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Re:, 07-24-04 3:47am

IT DOESNT FUCKING WORK!* sorry, messed up there....

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07-24-04 3:21pm

Why hate Kalie? All she ever did was love you...

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07-27-04 12:35pm

Drizzit is evil looking...

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Re:, 07-30-04 6:29pm

*Drizzt



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this is justyn, 07-27-04 10:45pm

hello paul how r u its justyn from first period well i just decided to say hello well bye.

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Re: this is justyn, 08-02-04 2:24pm

hello justyn from first period. you will die in agony. And as for paul, how 'bout i strap you to a wall, i never whip a man an inch from death on his knees. Ok. sorry. I needed that. But all I can say is that kaylie shouldn't be hated, tori shouldn't be hated, but frowned up, and you should only be scorned, for being arrogant. You are amazing. And you shouldn't let some psycho depression chemical in your brain stop you from that.

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Re: Re: this is justyn, 08-02-04 2:25pm

*frowned upon

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Re: Re: this is justyn, 08-08-04 5:26pm

depression chemmicals mess everything up...
mer.

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Re: this is justyn, 02-08-05 12:57am

OHMYGOSH!

I DONT LIKE YOU!

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08-05-04 7:49pm

I know.





I know your plans...

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Re:, 08-26-04 8:57pm

f-u-c-k-y-o-u!

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Re: Re:, 08-26-04 10:16pm

hey thats mean.

what did i do to you?

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08-26-04 11:22pm

You are a fucking asshole sometimes.
You are very arrogont. Rude. Selfish. Cold. Depressed.
My list could go on.

I don't have problems. I have no idea what fucking right you have to tell me if I have problems or not.
You have more problems than anyone I know.

And you think I'm clingy?! Fuck. I am not as clingly as you were today. You clung onto Tori like she was the last person on Earth.

I really wanted to kick you today. You made me that angry.

You've treated me like shit. EVERYONE says so.
I'm not going to take it anymore.

If I'm not worth your time...you are diffently not worth mine.

I want to be your friend and to love you like no one else ever could.
But you don't want that...so I'll stop forcing it upon you.

So I guess this is good-bye for quit a long time.

Bye.

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Re:, 08-27-04 11:42am

qhat right do i have? what is that supposed to mean? Arrogant? no, intuitive. Rude? no, i just say things you'd rather not hear. like the truth! Cold. So talk to tori about that. it's not my fault. not my problem.
Depressed? yeah, right, like you'd know what depression was if somebody loaded it into a 70calaber and shot it at your head!
Love me like no one else could. you don't know what love is.

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Re: Re:, 08-28-04 1:53am

its a figure of speech. duh.

id rather not hear them..but i open my ears to it anyway. and by rude i ment other things that you have done.

i dont know what depression is eh? i think i know. i know more than you think.

here goes another pointless arguement. and i know you just want me to say something that will prove you right. but im smarter than that so im not going to even go there.
if my answer is that important to you..you can either..a)read my journal or b)call me or c) actually talk to me in person and not ignore me.

shoot me in the head. see if i fucking care.

bye.

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08-27-04 12:21am

Paul- is it over?
<3 L

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07-22-05 11:05pm

I wonder if you ever read random comments that I randomly leave all over these old entries.

One year ago... tomorrow. We've come so far, it's been amazingly awesome.

I just kind of wish we wouldn't have fought. Like now, I really didn't mean to break your trust. I would say "I won't do it again." But I'm pretty sure that's not how it works. Knowing me I say things I don't ever do, ever.

You must have been Aaron when all this happened. I'll have to ask you about it sometime... I want to know, that's all.

I love you.

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