07-28-04 11:09pm

dammit Jason.

I hope you realize someday that this doesn't mean anything.

I hope someday you can learn to love yourself...

To often you say that you are a new person.. that you have changed.

This most often occurs when you want to distance yourself with your actions of the past.

I'm sorry but people rarely have actual life changing events. If I were to count I imaging that I would count at least 27 of these events recounted in your journal.

In actuality, you are one person. Actept who you are, who you were, and who you will become... not because it is necesary in order to "move on to the next stage" but because they are all the same person.

Tree starts as a seed then a sapling, then a yearling..... finaly a tree.

Real progress is made over time and is not consisting of pivitol events.

I'm not telling you this to alienate you... I'm telling you this as a friend. Your past mistakes are stil your mistakes.

You do not need to change and/or accept anything to progess along in life, Jason.

The hurdles you are jumping are a figment of your imagination.

I'm not telling you this because I am a shining example of what I am saying...

I'm telling you this so maybe you can think about it. Perhaps you will take away from this reply exactly what I expect, but I doubt it quite a lot. I just hope you get something because if not... I could have spent this bandwidth downloading porn...

That makes me sad.

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Re:, 07-28-04 11:55pm

Who said I didn't love myself? I love myself an immense amount... I just can't live with myself sometimes. Either way, I'm stuck with (both sides of) myself for the long haul, might as well get used to it, shouldn't I?

I do appreciate your advice, always have, always will. And I have incorporated your point of view into my cognitive schema.

Thank you for not sitting idly by and/ or downloading porn.

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Re:, 07-29-04 2:56am

I suddenly feel my respect for you rising up a few notches Mike... That was good.

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07-29-04 3:29pm

I agree with Polish Pimping for the most part. I am kind of suprised to hear you talk of destiny, because I didn't think you believed in a higher power. I find that interesting.

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Re:, 07-29-04 8:39pm

I don't, but I believe actions dictate outcomes.

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Re: Re:, 07-29-04 10:57pm

I don't understand though how you think your outcome is already determined. What have you done exactly that has determined your outcome?

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