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TaoMan1121 (profile) wrote,
on 7-31-2004 at 12:04am
Current mood: inquisitive
Music: Moby - Porcelain
Subject: in my dreams/i'm jealous all the time.
What is about relationships and love that requires constant reaffirmation? "Do you love me?" "Why do you love me?" And the like. Even when you've that the person is right in front of you, is giving you their undivided attention, giving all of themself to you... why are we still unsure? Have we all been hurt so bad in the relatively short time we've spent in the relationship arena? Is it intrisnic or it is learned instead? Is it an age thing; does it go away with a long-term relationship and stability? Is it just women and myself, or do most guys feel the same way and just hide it better? If I ever said or suggested I was above that paranoia, that jealousy... well, I was just being a liar, a hypocrite, and a guy. I think it's a normal and necessary thing though, that need for assurance and that perceived lack of footing. I mean, you roll the dice and put your feelings in the possession of another, it's bound to make you a little edgy. But hey, you can't win if you don't play the game.

By the way, I don't mean for all these journal enteries to sound so depressing as of late. I'm not depressed when I write these words, in fact, for the most part these days, I'm pretty happy. Contentment is completely different story, but no matter. I can't really put a finger on where it all comes from, but it's there nonetheless.
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Angel_Bob

07-31-04 12:50am

I'll quote Nick on this:

"People suffer from missing words. Things that they want to hear so desperately, whether it be 'I love you', or 'I trust you', or even 'here I am', but they starve from never hearing it. Each person is different, but they all are waiting to here something from somebody they care about.

So people all around the world are constantly starving and being persecuted, used, and worked to death. In the Nazi's death camp they broke the bodies, but the heart was still there, now the heart is slowly hardening up and people are becoming insensitive to anything, and dying from the inside out."


Thoughts are the best things ever.

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Fanelia

08-01-04 12:51am

As frustrating as it can sometimes be to always be unsure of another's feelings for you, or to constantly worry that one day you'll wake up and they'll be gone from your side, it is also a good thing. But always subconsiously reminding yourself how unhappy you could be WITHOUT them, you are cherishing and valuing their presence in your life that much more, thus not taking them for granted.

Only when you never have to worry about losing something you love do you not love it anymore.

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michellestar

08-01-04 1:26am

From my experiences, it has to do with age and the duration of the relationship. It goes away. People our age are naturally very insecure. But it's just a stage that will be grown out of, and perhaps some of you already have. Worrying makes it real, but too much worrying makes it unhealthy.

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