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| xoxchubbyxox (profile) wrote, on 8-4-2004 at 1:40pm | |
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| i dont know nemore, i feel like im just repeating what ive already said in the past, but no matter how much i say it or try to express myself, i feel as if i cant say it enough. the cllser i get to moving, the worse i feel. i have become empty, lonely, and i already feel so distant. i dont know what im going to do. this summer, was supposed to be fun for me, my last time here in natick... but it just wasnt, and i say this now becuase its nearly over, for me, at least. all of u will see eachother again at school, just liek i was supposed to, but ill be off in a different town and a completely different setting, alone, with no one. i wish i could be more positive about this but it feels so impossible, everytime i try to think in an optimistic way, it ends up twisting around on me, making me wonder about what ifs? what if i never see any of you again, what if u guys dont miss me as much as i miss u, what if i hate my new life? what if u guys forget about me? i feel so depressed, and lonely all of the time. i mean im about to go, and i have barely seen thepeople i promised to see all the time before i left.i knew i was moving, but i never thought it would be like this... i didnt want to be this sad or distant, but i am. i have no idea what to do. :-( no matter what, i still love everyone, and ill miss them everyday that im gone, even if thats forever. |
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krazykelc1 | im speechless, 08-05-04 12:37am :( |
| Anonymous | 08-06-04 7:40pm Its going to be okay! Your gonna make tons of new friends...even better than the ones you already have! we'll always be friends and youll always be coming down to visit and on your 16th birthday we can have a huge hot tub party and your new MANSION!!!!!! well just remember all of us will always be here for you and you can always call, im, or you can even come down and stay with me for like a week or something! Talk to you later!!
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xonixieox | Re:, 08-09-04 5:53pm Hey Darien its Nikkie and i just got home from camp.. i wish this summer was better too... and i tried to call you a couple times but w/e :\ anyways i just wanted to know when oyu are moving and to tell you if we cant get together before then that i love oyu and will miss you and not to worry because maybe this will work out better for you in the end
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xoxchubbyxox | Re: Re:, 08-10-04 12:20am half of me wants it to work out better...but the other half wnats to stay here...and be happy. i love and miss u too. we DEFINITELY have to do something beofre its over...i really need to.i cant leave without seeing u at least once..i dont know what'd i would do without u all year.and when i move, i promise to invite u up when i get he chance...cuz i dont wan tto be there alone. i love you!
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xonixieox | Re: Re: Re:, 08-11-04 12:26pm ya whatever! byebye |