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| xonixieox (profile) wrote, on 8-5-2004 at 11:21am | |
| ok well i went to genes wake.. and it was so hard.. i couldnt sleep since it happened.. the second i went into the wake i decided that i couldnt go up to the casket.. it was too hard.. then when i saw amanda being so strong and not crying i just broke down.. i dont know why i just did! so i cryed for the 2 and a half hours i was there basically... when i saw big gene and chris crying it broke my heart. 3 things made me really break down... #1 was when genes best friend Ryan nelt down and prayed and then kissed Genes forehead! that made me lose it the most... #2 was when Big Gene stood over little Gene and was rubbing his head and kissing him and crying! that was so heartbreaking to watch.. but i know gene is in a better place.. #3 was when Ryan and Adam.. Genes two best friends in the world nelt down next to Gene and prayed for like a half hour.. those 3 things were the worst for me to watch... Amanda carried around Gens Duck from when he was little and that was really sad... but when Big Gene gave me a hug and wouldnt let go... i started bawling.. I even gave Lisa a hug (Gene and amanda's stepmom) and she hugged me and was like "im so happy your here.. Gene was so lucky to have Friends like you" i fucking started Bawling there too! the whole 2 1/2 hours were just non stop crying for me becca and lizzy! it was so bad! i finnaly had enough courage to go up to the casket ot show my repects but i couldnt do it alone so Nikki Z came up with me.. i was so glad she was there because i coulnd do it on my own.. im so thankful for her.. and her brother died so she knows how it feels and she will help amanda throught this.. well im starting to cry writing this so im gunna go .. but.. i just want to say that that was the hardest thing i have ever had to go through in my life! I really wanted to go to the Funeral but i couldnt get a ride.. everyone sed it was hard so i guess im kinda glad i dint go... maybe gene is always in my heart |
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lilkristen | 08-07-04 6:54pm im really sorry.. that shit can be real tough.. you get through eventually... i promise |
silentcriez | 08-10-04 1:29am i love you nicole
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xonixieox | Re:, 08-10-04 5:21pm I LOVE YOU AMANDA! |