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| silentcriez (profile) wrote, on 8-7-2004 at 11:17pm | |
| Current mood: confused Music: heaven is a place on earth - the bangles Subject: sometimes i dont understand me.. |
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| well.. ive been thinking alot about me.. about my friends.. about my life.. and about this life that everybody is living.. i dont know what to do.. i mean im not gonna lie in here and say everythings fine i mean this is where i spill my emotions where i tell it like it is.. ok so heres the deal.. meg and dave like eachother and its like dude.. why does everyone get what i want.. do i not deserve it? like am i not good enough? it kills me.. i wanna like scream out how i really feel but it wouldnt get me anywhere.. and trying to stop it is even more pointless.. because i am the one preaching about ppl not wanting me to be happy id be the hipocrite.. but im not one so im trying to be more mature.. meg tried talking to me tonight.. but i know whats best for me and what i need.. and thats space.. i need time away from her to think things over... to realize what im missing by being so stubborn.. they say you never truly understand a persons worth until youve lost them.. well on a happier note.. i got to see andre and kevin today for the first time in only god knows how long.. it was fun.. we went home like 6 times lol and baked a huggeeeeeee cake ;-) lol i love you kelsey and lizzy you girlies are the best welllll im gonna write a poem because i have alot inside me i need to get out.. --- every night i wish on the first star i see that night a burning ball of mystery shining big and bright my hopes and dreams flow into the sky wishing for things and reasons why but life doesnt always give me what i want it plays with me and likes to taunt i get a taste of happiness and its ripped away just wish i could get over this and be happy for a day but as far as my stupid hearts concerned ill never have a chance ill never have a chance to be in a true romance.. ill have to sit and watch them all be happy with themselves holding hands in tranquility wish theyd go to hell i cant sit back and wish them teh best i hope im not out of line but when i say im through with this all i need is time time to think and time to heal time to see whats fake whats real.. a chance to understand my head make sure that my heart is not mislead let me prove to myself that this is what is best to leave her now in this time of great distress walk away and think things through when time has passed see if its true ill look around and see whats real see whats needed to be revealed understand why things had to be this hard today and when this life will finally go my way... ----------- my new favorite song This may be the last thing that i write for long Can you hear me smiling when i sing this song, for you and only you As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want Is this what you need, how you end up let me know. As I go, remember all the simple things you know, My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when I'm gone This is the last song The hearts start breaking as the year is gone The dream's beginning and the time rolls on It seems so surreal, now I sing it. Somehow I knew that it would be this way, Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade. Now i'm gone, just try and stop me now. You wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back Now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want Is this what you need, how you end up let me know. As I go, remember all the simple things you know, My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when I'm gone This is the last song And will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow You want it too, I want it too. As I go, remember all the simple things you know, My mind is just a crutch and I still hope, that you will miss me when I'm gone This is the last song |
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independenttruckergrl | 08-08-04 12:56am thats an awesome song. whos it by?
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| Anonymous | 08-08-04 8:02pm You know someone did like you but you didn't go for the chance. |
silentcriez | Re:, 08-09-04 6:03pm who? |