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| justplainolemica (profile) wrote, on 8-8-2004 at 3:28pm | |
| Current mood: blah Subject: Long time no write |
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| So, a lot of stuff has happened. A lot of people arent what they seem or dont do as they say. Also, I've been getting in trouble a lot. And I dont know how much trouble I really deserve to be in. Ok lets start with a few nights ago... last monday. Fun times out with Mal Emma and Ashley. Then Ashley yells lots. I kiss Pete. Crazy times. Then lets go with Tuesday night. I cried a lot. Lots of John stuff coming back up. Lots of just not knowing what I want to do and not knowing what I should do and not knowing where I am in life. It was a deep night full of crying. Then I get home, mom and dad pissed... lotsa pissed. More crying. That relationship that everyone should have with there parents isnt there for me. And I wish it was. Now lets fast forward to Friday night. Lotsa shit happened. Lets go with the less deep of the three first. Emma kisses with John. I dunno. I dont think I should be mad at Emma. And I'm basically over that they have kissed. This is evident by the fact that I can go hang out with John. But I am still mad at Emma and I've decided its because of how she handled it. I thought we were better more mature people than how things are going. I mean John came to me steped up and said hey this is what happened and I'm stupid for it. Great, now go deal with Dena and we're straight. And he did and we are. Emma on the other hand just keeps blaming everyone. I really just wish that she could suck it up admit it happened and say sorry. But instead shes blamed everyone in the world. Drunk is an excuse yes, but you still suck it up and admit that you did it. She even tried to make me feel bad. I was gonna just let it go, accept that she wont admit it and move on. But then I just asked her how she would feel if the situation was reversed. And she said to me "Well, my sister does kinda like Pete" Ummm Bitch! That was COMPLETELY different. 1. no one told me and 2. they arent dating. I was told that she had a thing with Jamason. I dunno I just got pissed when she said that because she shouldnt try and make me feel bad when I've done nothing wrong. Just be a girl and admit that you screwed up. Thats all I'm asking for. Its a big pet peve of mine when people cant just accept whats happened. Its in the past and whatever excuse there is for it happening, it happened, so step up to it. Like I said I'm over the kiss. I'm just upset that a girl I concidered a great friend isnt showing the good character I know that she has. Most deep story here... Jason Schultz. big ass. Lotsa stuff happened. And I dont know what to say. I'm prolly not gonna say anything really. I'm fine I guess. I really cant be upset with anyone but myself right? A girl should know better than to be invited to go sleep and think that there will actually just be sleeping. A girl should know better than that right? I dunno I guess I am just a dilusional girl that thinks that if a guy agrees to no sex then there will really be no sex. Hmmm my bad. Gotta say it was a scary time. And I'm kinda upset wtih his roomate. I dont know this other roomate but for pete sake if you here someone yelling "no" and "ouch" and "stop" and "get the hell off me" and all that stuff... why would you not come rescue the girl? I dunno. I'm stupid. Gotta be more careful. I'm really stupid. |
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blinkt23 | 08-12-04 4:13pm see, you get mad taht my journal sucks, but then you dont even write a new entry in yours....a new entry is better than no entry.
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