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| jennapie (profile) wrote, on 8-9-2004 at 11:52pm | |
| How can one thing can make you so incredibly happy and insanly jealous at the exact same time? I love Chick Flicks! But for real, why can't anything that happens in the movies happen to me. Why can't I have a guy next door that is so perfect for me? Why can't I dance under the stars and then kiss the guy next door before he goes home, then fall asleep knowing that everything is perfect, and forevermore will be? I don't get it!!! Why can't I have that?!?! What the heck is wrong with me? cuz it obvioulsy is me, I mean, everyone else seems to get what they want. And they all seem happy. Why can't I be happy? I want that so bad. Maybe that is my problem. I want it too bad. I want a high school boyfriend. I want someone to go to all of the dances with, I want someone who will take me out and we won't have to talk to have a good time, we just will because we are together. Ugh!! Actually I hate Chick Flicks!! They make me realize how incredibly horrible everything in my life really is. At least I've been kissed. Too bad t wasn't how I imagined, with the sparks and everything. So it wasn't the perfect guy, I think my sister already found him, and brought him home and is dating him. He fits into our family, I really don't think that there is anyone in my grade or school who will be as close to perfect as he is for our family. I mean...come on...my dad's great grandma baby-sat his dad when he was little. And we didn't even know this until we were looking at baby pictures, and Stacey was like "hey, that's my grandma Jessie," I mean it is like they were totally meant to be. I want that!! I am so jealous, nothing like that will ever happen to me. I'm too imperfect for anything even remotely relating to a fairy-tale to ever happen to me. But I'm gonna go because suddenly I'm very depressed over how pitiful my life actually is. Ugh! I wanna cry! |
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glitterkisses | 08-10-04 10:17pm :( those movies do suck, but hey they're cute too.
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