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| DarkSwordDancer (profile) wrote, on 8-18-2004 at 11:31pm | |
| Damn....i was excited for school...but now....*SHOOTS PAST "RELATIONSHIP" IN THE HEAD*...arg...i dont want to go back to the uncertainty of days that bland together.I dont want to be all self concious again. I dont want to have to plan my everymove so i dont screw up.Im sooo tired of this shit i get everyyear.I swear im goignt to crack , especialy if maggie even TRIES to do anything or say anything toward me.ARG ...im have ...GOD.....I just want everything to stay like this, this simplicity.I really dont want to have to put up with PEOPLE. I dont think i have enough patience to go to school and do the same thing every day,for 9 mounths....i have a headach...and im spazzing and....shit now im starting to cry..... and my mom just came up stairs and wants to know whats wrong....and im not going to tell her, because she'll just say it wont matter in ten years, cause that fixes everything. this is my life its not what it was before all these feelings i've shared and these are my dreams that i'd never lived before somebody shake me cuz i i must be sleeping [chorus] now that we're here, it's so far away all the struggle we thought was in vain all in the mistakes, one life contained they all finally start to go away now that we're here its so far away and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive and i'm not ashambed to be the person that i am today these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay and this is the smile that i've never shown before somebody shake me cuz i i must be sleeping [chorus] i'm so afraid of waking please don't shake me afraid of waking please don't shake me DAMNIT......bah...oh ronnie commited adultry against ashley..and linda*daras step mom* mother died. Yeah...so here is the rest of the entry...im going to die of frustration.....because my parents are incoheriant...and i try to not tell my friends...because then i seem whiney. My dad took away my katan because he thought i was acting like a baby...well i thought he was acting like a babybecause he took it away...and then there was this big arguement which basicaly said that after my dad had given me the sword he no longer had control over when and where i could have it....which brnached off into another conversation...ok...argument... I had another weird dream....i was floating down the anaconda river with 2 other people and the river was like a hot spring...well neways we got out at this cave...and i guess this guy dressed as a samuri killed the other 2 peeps dad...and they bought me for him(?)...it was really weird...then we escaped...from him...i guess...and went to a restaurant...and got raw meat...and had a convo with a wrestling dude....then went back to the cave thing....and decided to kill the samuri dude(?) but it ended with those two being killed and me with a sword stuck between my ribs..but it didnt kill me...then i was shakeled to a wall...and just kinda stood their in a kamono..with a sword in my side...bleeding green and silver feathers.........then...i somehow got the sword out, stuck it in my pocket ,healed myself...and escaped....but when i got out i was in ...a place that looked like it poped out of aladin...and then i was wearing a skirt...and vest...and vale....it was weird...then i woke up. ....i wish i could just disappear..... |
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Jessika | 08-19-04 12:12am Last night, I had a dream about Ed. I was still going out with him. I was at home, but had to go to his house to make a pb&j for my mom. These other 2 chicks were there ordering pizza for their house using his phone. I got somewhat jealous, they got pissed, and I sat on Ed's couch that magically appeared. The end. :-)
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