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| silentcriez (profile) wrote, on 8-25-2004 at 9:02am | |
| Current mood: sad Music: imma tell x tech n9ne |
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| i cannot stand this anymore.. when one thing goes wrong everything starts falling down with it.. i leave to take kaitlin to college on the 28th.. im gonna miss her :-\ and im gonna be alone with my dad i wont be able to handle it.. im gonna kill him seriously.. until i get my lisence idk what the fuck im gonna do.. my sister told me that after she got her lisence she was fine.. it was the freedom she had to just get out away from the house and just drive to just run away from everything and i need that badly... but i really hate myself and i hate my family.. and i hate people i dont know what the hell is wrong with me im so on edge emotionally so that one wrong word from someone or one sad thing and i take it so personally and i get so upset.. i was at the school this morning getting my schedule fixed, and my dad asked my fucking guidence counselor about emailing teachers when i didnt do my work.. is he fucking gay im not like 2 years old i wanted to slaughter him.. we were walking out of the building and i started crying and told him i wasnt gonna go to dinner with his parents... i want to like..kill him seriously.. he makes me so angry he doesnt even know me let alone know whats good for me.. he has no idea what ive been through.. what ive seen.. done.. lived though.. what i feel.. he doesnt know anything about me.. i just feel like nobdoy knows the real me.. like ive hidden it for so long i might not even know myself... and last night it was megs birthday.. and ryan ripped her off.. that was really heartless.. and i felt so powerless because i couldnt help i could just watch one of my best friends break down.. i hate feeling helpless.. and there was nothing i could do.. though i wanted to and i didnt wanna leave her alone because i knew that she would break down.. i love you meg no matter what happens... im sorry that your birthday wasnt what you thought it would be.. but i had fun beign with you and i am always here for you.. ill write some more later... - manda |
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| Anonymous | i <3 you, 08-25-04 3:43pm aw thanks manda..and belive me, you did enough..you guys were all there for me..and i <3 you all for being there..and making my birthday fun :)..cept for that last part..:(..well i love you <33333
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