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| dmlxoxo (profile) wrote, on 8-30-2004 at 12:04am | |
| Current mood: depressed Subject: no regrets huh? yeah right, i could never live like that. |
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| i told 2 people, people i thought i could trust, all my friends found out. i fucked up. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry. all my friends have lost all respect for me. EVERYONE fucks up. and when someone fucks up and they need help, their friends should be by their side helping them with whatever they can. but ive learned that i only have one true friend out here- jordana. everyone else that found out, and even nick who i told counting on him to help me, have been total jerks. theyre not true friends. all ive heard from them is "ive lost all respect for u" and "how could u stoop so low" and "im so disappointed in u". tonight at the vma party they were acting like total asses, subtly hinting at the subject while morgan and aaron were there. i hate them all right now. i need them, and all along i thought they needed me too, but if they really loved me like they said they did they would help me out now. "uve changed so much danielle, and its not for the better" i cant stand to hear that. when someone has me questioning my own identity and my morals and what i thought i stood for, then i know im in trouble. everyone fucks up. this was one of the few times i have and i think i deserve some slack. i cant deal with them all coming down on me so hard for something like this. do i tell him, or do i not tell him? why the hell did i do something so stupid? i hurt morgan and in the process, i hurt myself. he didnt deserve any of this, even if he wasnt being right to me all the time. i hate everything right now. im sorry and i mean that with all my heart. i would never hurt u and i didnt keep my promise. i took ur heart with the promise not to break it and now, i fear that i may have done damage. with all sincerity, im sorry. |
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Superspaz | 08-30-04 12:52pm danielle, you changed. not somethign yo uwanted to hear, i know, but you did. but that just means your human. so you made a mistake... i did too this summer. it got my counselors kicked out of camp. but you deal, cuz thats what you do. what doesnt kill you makes you stronger. |
Lizzy | 08-30-04 9:17pm aww danielle :(
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| Anonymous | 08-31-04 12:26am ooo danielle! whadya do??
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dreamer57 | 09-01-04 4:18pm Danielle, we all make mistakes...i don't know how many people must tell you that, but it's true. You put it really well though with what u felt when people told u u changed for the worse. I cant even tell you how many times someone i thought was my friend has said that to me and it drove me insane and i never...quite understood why. But stop stressing, you ARE allowed to make mistakes. Dealing with the guilt gets easier with time...and like they say "Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.." It's very true. And hey, you're young! You're allowed to have fun. Just because u did wat u did(and i think i may know, but i wont jump to conclusions) doesnt mean ur going to ruin the rest of ur life. Im always here if u need to talk to someone whos been through it. Luv u sweetie hope ur enjoying the end of ur summer!
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