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| xonixieox (profile) wrote, on 8-30-2004 at 8:40pm | |
| Current mood: depressed Music: my sniffling still Subject: FUCK THE WORLD |
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| ok well today i talked to amanda and she was at benhem with emme.. i miss them both.. oh wait first it started where i was supposed to do something with becca but "shes out with the girls" so whatever fuck that! so i asked my mom to drive me she sed no... then i asked her again and she sed fine.. then my dad sed no dont drive her anywhere shes a rude ignorant bitch so i yelled and sed that i didnt do anything and they just boith started hitting me and yelling and screaming and i cant stop crying.. then i went outside for air because you know when you cry really hard how you cant breath? ya so when i went to go back insidse they locked me out so i was banging and they were standing there inside watching me but they wouldnt open the door... at that moment i just wanted to go lay down in the middle of rt 9 and just kill myself! i really want to right now u fucking hate my family... then my sister opened the door and they pushed me and locked it again.. when they finnaly let me in they sed they called the cops... i kinda wish thewy had so i wouldnt have to still be here! well then they unplugeed my cable but i figured it out and now... now.. now i can still hear them yelling at eachother abouit me like always! if my dad cant yell at me he will find someone to yell at! :( thats all i can write im too upset.. to much going through my head.. i thought about so much... the butchers knofe... asprin.. my dads heart meds.. rt 9 .. i dont know i just dont want to be here anymore... what is there really to live for? nothiing... NOTHING at all | |
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| Anonymous | 08-31-04 3:42pm ooooohhh nikkie i love you!! if u killed urself on route 9 i would cry! then i would prolly kill myself cuz i love my nikkie!!! dont let that bug u cuz u have ur friends that u can always talk to(like me)and thats important....just dont be sad! ok? i mean i really mean it if u killed urself i would cry! well ill talk to u later and shit well... I <3 u!!!
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xoxchubbyxox | Re:, 09-03-04 8:52pm please dont ever talk like that! i pormise you have so much to live for, i am one of those things! whenever ur in a bad mood or feeling sad or nething just call me and talk to me about it! i may not be rite there when u need me but im just a phone call away! |
xoxchubbyxox | Re: Re:, 09-03-04 11:26pm o yes and dont forget that i love you!!! |
lilkristen | 09-07-04 6:57pm you should seriously tell someone about that.. they arent supposed to hit you.. or lock you out of your house.. and dont kill yourself.. trust me.. i almost did and right now im really glad im still here... |