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| TaoMan1121 (profile) wrote, on 9-8-2004 at 11:27am | |
| Current mood: blah Music: Badly Drawn Boy - Another Devil Dies |
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| My social anxiety frustrates me to no extent sometimes. You think after all I've been through, all of the opportunities to extend my abilitity to function in situations where I might feel uncomfortable or off-guard, I'd be more adept at it. Hell, even my undergrad work here at Western, specifically CfA, has prepared me for meeting new people on a regular basis. But for me, when there's a structure, a build-up, or a power hierarchy attached to the situation, I have a strong tendency to clam up. I always go through with the situation (i.e. I see my responsibilities through), but I don't always accomplish it effectively. Yet, I'm sure this is me being too hard on myself... but the instant I hear that quiver in my voice, it makes me second guess the next statement I'm going to make, and it all windfalls from there. That sticky feeling sticks with me for a while, and it contaminates everything I think about or attempt to do for a short period of time. It just goes to show you, if you think about something too long, and you are going to fuck yourself with it. Eh, I'm already feeling better and I'll be fine on Friday. I can take some solace in the fact that I've learned to, at the very least, get over it quickly. There's no time to dwell, anyway, I've got a lot to get done. |
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michellestar | 09-08-04 7:35pm *thinks really hard about David Duchovny*
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TaoMan1121 | Re:, 09-08-04 9:21pm Single children unite! :-) |